lean with it [rock with it♥]

well.
that's it.
i'm done with people treating me like shit.
people think i only do things because i don't care about their feelings when, really, it is them not caring about my feelings.
does he really think that every time he tells me i screwed up it doesn't hurt?
because it does.
heartbreak is the worst thing in the world, and, being who he is, you would think he'd know that.
obviously not.
i will give you a few quotes straight from the jackass himself;;
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him: since ur going to act like i thought i could try to start again with u but this just ended it
x
him: -shakes head- u just lost my trust
me: i lost it before, i thought.
him: yeah but gain some anyways now its all gone
x
him: ur a jerk that doesnt care if she hurts anyone just as lobng as shes happy shes fine
x
him: oh and im blocking u
x
the last one is hilarious.
kara knows why.
you see; this has become a daily routine for me.
he'll get mad at me for something i screwed up.
everyone makes mistakes.
anyway.
i've stopped caring.
so he'll be like, "i'm blocking you. bye."
and i'll simply say, "bye."
[i used to stop him, but then i got used to it and now i don't bother.]
and then he'll block me.
two second later?
he comes back online.
and IMs me.
sometimes it's to see if i'll talk to him.
when i don't, he'll im me with something stupid.
like... "-sigh-"
and wait for me to react.
sometimes, he signs on just to tell me how much he hates me.
i think he does that one just to make him believe it himself.
other times, he'll start talking to me like we're friends again.
that's pretty much the 3 things he does.
i s'pose it just depends on what kind of mood he's in.
and, trust me, he has enough mood swings to last for the world.
first, he's the sweetest thing ever, then he's yelling at me because i dumped him almost a year ago.
I DON'T GET IT.
does /anyone/ get why he does the things he does?
please.
just tell me how he can think that driving anyone to hate themselves is a good thing.
i'll love you forever.
xox,
the confused one.