why [do you ALWAYS do this to me] ?

uggh.
confusing seems to be the word of my life right now.
so, everyone knows i like this guy.
i mean, hell-oh.
it's obvious.
but, like, i'm not supposed to like him and he's not supposed to like me.
but it seems like the saying is true.
you always want what you can't have.
GO FIGURE.
and to add to it?
i don't even know if i like him.
my feelings are so screwed at the moment.
like, he makes fun of me.
he talks about his girl friend around me, even though he knows it bugs me.
he constantly yells at me for no reason.
and every day i go through the same thing.
he's like, "okay. you're a stupid bitch and i'm blocking you."
so i'm like, "whatever."
because i am so sick of caring.
so then he goes offline/blocks me.
guess what happens two seconds later?
he comes back online waiting for me to go crawling back to him.
then when i don't [because even though it may not seem that way, i'm a really strong girl. emotionally and slightly physically], he comes crawling back to me saying, "well i GUESS i'll be your friend if you WANT."
and so i'm like, "i don't really care either way."
then he says, "oh please. you love me. you couldn't live without me."
HAH.
i totally could.
i think.
i mean, like, if i tried/wanted to, i could.
but he's making everything hard.
so then he decides to twist things saying i'm mad at him for not dumping his girl friend for me after i broke his heart twice.
which i'm not.
it's totally understandable.
sure, i wish he loved me, but i don't expect him to.
i dumped him for stupid reasons twice.
i'm not sure i'd still like someone who did that to me.
anyway.
yeah.
so then we work things out and are friends again until the next night when he does it again.
IT'S JUST SO FRICKING ANNOYING.
i can't stand it anymore.
and poor kara has to deal with me every time.
i love her.
she's the best.
srsly.
i don't even know how i handle myself everyday, let alone my friends who have to deal with it.
so, yeah, i'm thankful for her.
and everyone who has ever cheered me up.
you all are the best.
<3
Paige