say {[i don't wanna be in love]}

well..
i figured instead of answering everyone IMing me asking what's wrong, i'd just post a blog so i only have to say this once.
i don't want to say it at all, but i figure that no one should be left in the dark...
i'm so sick of this shit that tony's giving me. [AND I DON'T EVEN CARE THAT I USED HIS REAL NAME]
let's start with last night;
we were talking normally and stuff, then all of a sudden, he's like, "i can't talk to you anymore. goodbye forever."
so i'm left thinking "WTF?"
so i beg&beg&beg him not to leave, and he finally gives in.
then he tells me how much he loves me and is so sorry.
so i fall for his sweet lies again.
which was obviously a mistakes because TODAY...
we were talking normally again.
then we got into a conversation about how he barely loves me anymore so we can be friends.
so i'm like, "cool."
then he decides he has to go because he can't talk to me for long periods of time, or something crappy like that.
so i'm like, "okay?"
then we got into a fight.
it's vague to me what actually took place, i was too shocked, i believe.
anyway.
now he's blocking me on everything he has.
and you know what?
i don't care.
i think i'm over him.
well.
i can say that, but i know that the second he comes crawling back to me, i'll love him again.
i'm strange like that.
but, this is a huge step.
because now i think i can live life without him.
so i'm moving along. (:
and i'm gonna go watch videos of me, kara & sabrina at my birthday party.
because they always make me smile. (:
love&feel-better hugs,
Paige