hey peeps.
its Kara, so don't freak. :]
anyways, Paige hacked into my blog and posted there.
so now i'm hacking into hers.
HACKHACKHACK.
see? :]
[wow. it sounds like i was coughing up a hairball or something.]
now...while Paige is soundly asleep, she will never know i'm doing this now.
see how sneaky i am?
actually, i'm not as sneaky as it may seem.
i had to ask her for her password after several failed attempts.
oh well.
my blog..its way better than Paige's.
~nodnod~
http://kae-life.blogspot.com/
yeah, you're jealousss.
now, i think its time for me to leave,
as much as i want to keep blabbering on and on and on to annoy Paige.
now, for Paige, if you delete this...i know where you live.
=o
and i'll delete your "hacking" on my blog.
so byee.
<3>
p.s. Paige is a totally awesome friend, i dunno what i would do without her. anybody who doesn't think that has issues. now buhbye.<3
Sunday, March 2, 2008
Saturday, March 1, 2008
i feel like a [hero] you are my {heroine}
Lies
So you love me, you say?
Don’t you tell her that too?
My friends tell me night and day,
Not to believe the things you do,
But I know the real person inside,
It’s not like you to do that,
To make me want to run and hide.
They say you call me a brat,
Well that isn’t right.
You deny everything they’ve said,
So I try to find the light,
Something to stop my spinning head.
Everyone tells me different lies,
It’s hard to keep them all straight.
One tells me to ignore your helpless cries,
Another says you're probably still great.
Why can’t everyone just decide?
Are you right for me, or just like all the other guys?
I need a sign, something to tell me if you lied.
A way to see past your pretty blue eyes.
It doesn’t matter, though,
I’m hopeless for a cure,
I guess I’ll never know,
If it was all a lie, or actually pure.
- Copyright of Paige
Friday, February 29, 2008
{{little.did.i.know.before}}
wellso my relationships with people?
they're all screwed.
my best friend has decided to broadcast my feelings to two people who she /knows/ don't like me that much.
then she goes on to tell me things about tony that i don't CARE about.
i've told her that before.
don't tell me things that you think i won't like.
it /really/ bugs me.
and then you wonder why i cry.
my crush and my best friend, the two people that i actually care about, i'm mad at.
see, my best friend for the reasons mentioned above and my crush because...
apparently all he does is lie.
and i like to believe him...
cause it's nice to think someone loves you.
and he used to always crush my hopes.
but now he said he might go out with me.
and so /kara/ decides to break me by saying he's lying.
sure, she's trying to not let me get hurt and i know she's trying to do the right thing,
but, newsflash,
IT'S MY LIFE.
i can do whatever i want with it.
and i certainly don't need the opinions of people who could care less about me.
so, let's just not go telling people random things about me, okay?
please&thanks.
they're all screwed.
my best friend has decided to broadcast my feelings to two people who she /knows/ don't like me that much.
then she goes on to tell me things about tony that i don't CARE about.
i've told her that before.
don't tell me things that you think i won't like.
it /really/ bugs me.
and then you wonder why i cry.
my crush and my best friend, the two people that i actually care about, i'm mad at.
see, my best friend for the reasons mentioned above and my crush because...
apparently all he does is lie.
and i like to believe him...
cause it's nice to think someone loves you.
and he used to always crush my hopes.
but now he said he might go out with me.
and so /kara/ decides to break me by saying he's lying.
sure, she's trying to not let me get hurt and i know she's trying to do the right thing,
but, newsflash,
IT'S MY LIFE.
i can do whatever i want with it.
and i certainly don't need the opinions of people who could care less about me.
so, let's just not go telling people random things about me, okay?
please&thanks.
Wednesday, February 27, 2008
i [can't] look at ((myself))
that song is stuck in my head.
"ugly" by brie larson. [love it]
no.
onto the point.
so i was reading this book last night, "Chicken Soup for the Teenage Soul, The Real Deal: Challenges" and in each story there's, like, a question. and it's really deep.
so i'm like, "hey! let's (being i) blog about my answers!"
so here you go.
and i feel there should be a warning.
if you don't want to know what goes on in my brain/heart, don't read this.
srsly.
on we go! (:
Have you ever felt like the life you're living is a lie?
yes. i mean, i'm a pretty real person, but sometimes i can't take it. like, people expect me to be happy. i skip around wearing pink, i'm not exactly the poster child for emoness. so every once and a while i throw on a fake smile or something and pretend things are okay when they're not. that's nothing huge though, i guess. but yeah. sometimes i feel like everything's a lie. not a lot, though.
Do you think you have unrealistic expectations about the way your relationships should work out?
in a word; yes. i think that the reason i dumped tony is because i wanted my life like a fairytale. like, i felt that i'd dump him, and he'd come running to my doorstep begging for forgiveness. [obviously that didn't work out as planned.] soyeah. sometimes i have really high expectations for people, and i end up getting my hopes crushed in the end.
Have you ever had an "anxiety dream" (a dream where you're falling, drowning, failing a test... etc.)?
yeah. i have falling/drowning dreams a lot. though when i'm drowning, i can always breathe underwater, which i kinda cool. and then i always flinch in my sleep when i have those falling dreams.
When super skinny celebs like Lindsay Lohan and Nicole Richie say they don't radically diet to achieve their slender figures, do you think they're being honest?
well let's face it; every girl thinks they're fat, at least a little. it's a problem we have. when people are unhealthily skinny, i do think they have a disorder. that, or they really don't know when to stop their diet. so yes, i do think they're lying most of the time.
Have you ever had a teacher go above and beyond for you?
yeah. at the last field trip we had, i threw up in the bathroom. all of my teachers were super caring and made sure i was okay and ms. drumm and ms. b both stayed with me to make sure i was okay. then ms. drumm and mr. parent brought me out to the car. i think it was nice.
Have you ever felt like a negative behavior or habit has taken over your life?
this one's hard. no, i really don't think so.
Have you ever ended up in the hospital because you were sick?
about a week after i was born, i had to go back to the hospital. something was wrong with my liver or something and it made my skin yellow. then i had to go under some blue light. and then once i went to the hospital because i got so dizzy i couldn't see. i don't really remember what happened with that. it was when i was, like, 3 or 4.
Many of us would rather get yelled at by our parents than be given the silent treatment. What about you?
i'm not sure. my dad, he yells really loud about stupid things. so i get yelled at a lot. i really can't stand it when people ignore me and stuff. so yeah, i'd probably pick the yelling thing.
In divorce cases, custody of children is usually given to the mom (more than 70% of the time). Why do you think that is?
well, the mom gives birth. most of the time, children are closer to their mothers anyway. so i guess that's why. although i don't know much about divorce, so i really don't have much of an opinion.
Do you think that everything happens for a reason?
not at all. i mean, really, there is no reason behind the fact that i dropped my lunch tray a long time ago. like, it slipped. there wasn't really a reason for it happening. so i don't understand why people always say "everything happens for a reason" cause it doesn't.
Have you ever become friends with someone who, years earlier, you couldn't stand?
yes. haha. my best friend, actually. in 5th and 6th grade, i never liked kara. like, she'd follow me and my friends around and talk to me all the time. i got really annoyed. but now we're like sisters. go figure. xD
Do you know how to live in the moment?
i'd like to think so. i try not to care about what other people think, and just do things when they seem right. i think it's how i want to live my life and so i do. i hope. xD
Do you ever make judgments that you find out later are totally wrong?
probably. like, i know it's super bad to label people you don't know, but i do. and it's bad to make that assumption on a person before you know them. i only do it sometimes, though. i'm trying to get better. (:
Have you ever thought about what your lifetime goal is?
yes, i've thought about it. i know for sure that i want to be happy and get married to someone i love. as for a job, i really don't know what i want to do. being an actress i'd like to do, but i'm shy. so i really just don't know about that. butyeah, my goal is to be happy and try to make others happy, too. (:
When you're feeling stressed or angry, what calms you down?
really just time. i have yet to figure out a way to rid myself of stress, still trying. xD. sometimes watching tv and being alone helps.
Have you ever not spoken up because you thought it'd hurt someone's feelings?
maybe. i probably have, which may contribute to reasons why i don't participate in class. that and i don't want to sound stupid.
Do you remember the first time you laid eyes on your BFF?
i'll tell my story about kara, then sabrina.
kara was in my girl scout troop for a few years with her friend, michelle. none of the people in our troop ever liked kara, actually. we thought she was annoying. but then i met her again in fifth grade, and we eventually became friends.
sabrina was in my fifth grade class. i sat next to sarah (who was my friend at the time), she sat in front of sarah, and frankie sat in front of me. like, the second or so day of school, we all had to find "clock buddies". at one point, me and sabrina were the only to left so we were "buddies". pretty funn. (:
Have you ever heard the words "I just don't feel the same way you do"? How did it make you feel?
something like those words, anyway. and, like, doctors say that your heart breaking is only in your head, but i think it actually happens sometimes. you know, if you get hurt enough. because when the person you like, doesn't like you back... it sucks. simple as that. and it hurts, really bad.
Do you parents ever leave you home alone with your boyfriend/girlfriend?
haha. no way. my parents give me strict instructions to stay downstairs, or if we go upstairs, they pretend to put away laundry or something, but they're really stalking us. xD
Do you know any kids at school who use drugs?
yes. well, at least i think i do. there's a kid who's ah-bviously a pothead. and i think this girl does to. i'm sure some people do. no one i'm close to,t hough... hopefully. xD
What do you think of racy t-shirts for girls with sayings on them like "hot chicks" or "baby doll"?
i mean, sometimes they're really stupid and just... stupid. other times, they just make me laugh. it's a free country, you know?
iloveyou.
lovemetoo?
[comments = admiration]
♥ Paige
"ugly" by brie larson. [love it]
no.
onto the point.
so i was reading this book last night, "Chicken Soup for the Teenage Soul, The Real Deal: Challenges" and in each story there's, like, a question. and it's really deep.
so i'm like, "hey! let's (being i) blog about my answers!"
so here you go.
and i feel there should be a warning.
if you don't want to know what goes on in my brain/heart, don't read this.
srsly.
on we go! (:
Have you ever felt like the life you're living is a lie?
yes. i mean, i'm a pretty real person, but sometimes i can't take it. like, people expect me to be happy. i skip around wearing pink, i'm not exactly the poster child for emoness. so every once and a while i throw on a fake smile or something and pretend things are okay when they're not. that's nothing huge though, i guess. but yeah. sometimes i feel like everything's a lie. not a lot, though.
Do you think you have unrealistic expectations about the way your relationships should work out?
in a word; yes. i think that the reason i dumped tony is because i wanted my life like a fairytale. like, i felt that i'd dump him, and he'd come running to my doorstep begging for forgiveness. [obviously that didn't work out as planned.] soyeah. sometimes i have really high expectations for people, and i end up getting my hopes crushed in the end.
Have you ever had an "anxiety dream" (a dream where you're falling, drowning, failing a test... etc.)?
yeah. i have falling/drowning dreams a lot. though when i'm drowning, i can always breathe underwater, which i kinda cool. and then i always flinch in my sleep when i have those falling dreams.
When super skinny celebs like Lindsay Lohan and Nicole Richie say they don't radically diet to achieve their slender figures, do you think they're being honest?
well let's face it; every girl thinks they're fat, at least a little. it's a problem we have. when people are unhealthily skinny, i do think they have a disorder. that, or they really don't know when to stop their diet. so yes, i do think they're lying most of the time.
Have you ever had a teacher go above and beyond for you?
yeah. at the last field trip we had, i threw up in the bathroom. all of my teachers were super caring and made sure i was okay and ms. drumm and ms. b both stayed with me to make sure i was okay. then ms. drumm and mr. parent brought me out to the car. i think it was nice.
Have you ever felt like a negative behavior or habit has taken over your life?
this one's hard. no, i really don't think so.
Have you ever ended up in the hospital because you were sick?
about a week after i was born, i had to go back to the hospital. something was wrong with my liver or something and it made my skin yellow. then i had to go under some blue light. and then once i went to the hospital because i got so dizzy i couldn't see. i don't really remember what happened with that. it was when i was, like, 3 or 4.
Many of us would rather get yelled at by our parents than be given the silent treatment. What about you?
i'm not sure. my dad, he yells really loud about stupid things. so i get yelled at a lot. i really can't stand it when people ignore me and stuff. so yeah, i'd probably pick the yelling thing.
In divorce cases, custody of children is usually given to the mom (more than 70% of the time). Why do you think that is?
well, the mom gives birth. most of the time, children are closer to their mothers anyway. so i guess that's why. although i don't know much about divorce, so i really don't have much of an opinion.
Do you think that everything happens for a reason?
not at all. i mean, really, there is no reason behind the fact that i dropped my lunch tray a long time ago. like, it slipped. there wasn't really a reason for it happening. so i don't understand why people always say "everything happens for a reason" cause it doesn't.
Have you ever become friends with someone who, years earlier, you couldn't stand?
yes. haha. my best friend, actually. in 5th and 6th grade, i never liked kara. like, she'd follow me and my friends around and talk to me all the time. i got really annoyed. but now we're like sisters. go figure. xD
Do you know how to live in the moment?
i'd like to think so. i try not to care about what other people think, and just do things when they seem right. i think it's how i want to live my life and so i do. i hope. xD
Do you ever make judgments that you find out later are totally wrong?
probably. like, i know it's super bad to label people you don't know, but i do. and it's bad to make that assumption on a person before you know them. i only do it sometimes, though. i'm trying to get better. (:
Have you ever thought about what your lifetime goal is?
yes, i've thought about it. i know for sure that i want to be happy and get married to someone i love. as for a job, i really don't know what i want to do. being an actress i'd like to do, but i'm shy. so i really just don't know about that. butyeah, my goal is to be happy and try to make others happy, too. (:
When you're feeling stressed or angry, what calms you down?
really just time. i have yet to figure out a way to rid myself of stress, still trying. xD. sometimes watching tv and being alone helps.
Have you ever not spoken up because you thought it'd hurt someone's feelings?
maybe. i probably have, which may contribute to reasons why i don't participate in class. that and i don't want to sound stupid.
Do you remember the first time you laid eyes on your BFF?
i'll tell my story about kara, then sabrina.
kara was in my girl scout troop for a few years with her friend, michelle. none of the people in our troop ever liked kara, actually. we thought she was annoying. but then i met her again in fifth grade, and we eventually became friends.
sabrina was in my fifth grade class. i sat next to sarah (who was my friend at the time), she sat in front of sarah, and frankie sat in front of me. like, the second or so day of school, we all had to find "clock buddies". at one point, me and sabrina were the only to left so we were "buddies". pretty funn. (:
Have you ever heard the words "I just don't feel the same way you do"? How did it make you feel?
something like those words, anyway. and, like, doctors say that your heart breaking is only in your head, but i think it actually happens sometimes. you know, if you get hurt enough. because when the person you like, doesn't like you back... it sucks. simple as that. and it hurts, really bad.
Do you parents ever leave you home alone with your boyfriend/girlfriend?
haha. no way. my parents give me strict instructions to stay downstairs, or if we go upstairs, they pretend to put away laundry or something, but they're really stalking us. xD
Do you know any kids at school who use drugs?
yes. well, at least i think i do. there's a kid who's ah-bviously a pothead. and i think this girl does to. i'm sure some people do. no one i'm close to,t hough... hopefully. xD
What do you think of racy t-shirts for girls with sayings on them like "hot chicks" or "baby doll"?
i mean, sometimes they're really stupid and just... stupid. other times, they just make me laugh. it's a free country, you know?
iloveyou.
lovemetoo?
[comments = admiration]
♥ Paige
Saturday, February 16, 2008
we're [falling♥apart] to half time
DANCEDANCE.
song moment. (:
okay.
now.
to the point of this blog...
i really am nawt hoping for a repeat of last year.
this all sounds too painfully familiar.
a dude dumps his girl friend.
then decides he wants to go out with me.
i am dubbed a boy friend stealer.
my best friend clings to my boy friend more than me.
we fight over him...
A ZILLION TIMES.
and yummers is the best friend ever.
and, except for the last part, i don't want to go through that again.
no.
nawt at all.
so all my friends [and parents] say that /if/ he asks me out, i should say no.
which would be totally cool and make him fall on his face.
but i can't say no to him.
as i told kara at the dance;
i swear to god he puts a spell on people.
because i know that if he were to ask me out at any point, i would say yes.
and i don't know if that's crazyness or stupidity or what.
but it has to mean something... right?
like, if we both go crawling back to each other, maybe we're made for each other?
i really just don't know.
and i want this drama to END.
liiiiike, now.
thanks.
<3
Paige
song moment. (:
okay.
now.
to the point of this blog...
i really am nawt hoping for a repeat of last year.
this all sounds too painfully familiar.
a dude dumps his girl friend.
then decides he wants to go out with me.
i am dubbed a boy friend stealer.
my best friend clings to my boy friend more than me.
we fight over him...
A ZILLION TIMES.
and yummers is the best friend ever.
and, except for the last part, i don't want to go through that again.
no.
nawt at all.
so all my friends [and parents] say that /if/ he asks me out, i should say no.
which would be totally cool and make him fall on his face.
but i can't say no to him.
as i told kara at the dance;
i swear to god he puts a spell on people.
because i know that if he were to ask me out at any point, i would say yes.
and i don't know if that's crazyness or stupidity or what.
but it has to mean something... right?
like, if we both go crawling back to each other, maybe we're made for each other?
i really just don't know.
and i want this drama to END.
liiiiike, now.
thanks.
<3
Paige
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
lean with it [rock with it♥]
well.
that's it.
i'm done with people treating me like shit.
people think i only do things because i don't care about their feelings when, really, it is them not caring about my feelings.
does he really think that every time he tells me i screwed up it doesn't hurt?
because it does.
heartbreak is the worst thing in the world, and, being who he is, you would think he'd know that.
obviously not.
i will give you a few quotes straight from the jackass himself;;
x
him: since ur going to act like i thought i could try to start again with u but this just ended it
x
him: -shakes head- u just lost my trust
me: i lost it before, i thought.
him: yeah but gain some anyways now its all gone
x
him: ur a jerk that doesnt care if she hurts anyone just as lobng as shes happy shes fine
x
him: oh and im blocking u
x
the last one is hilarious.
kara knows why.
you see; this has become a daily routine for me.
he'll get mad at me for something i screwed up.
everyone makes mistakes.
anyway.
i've stopped caring.
so he'll be like, "i'm blocking you. bye."
and i'll simply say, "bye."
[i used to stop him, but then i got used to it and now i don't bother.]
and then he'll block me.
two second later?
he comes back online.
and IMs me.
sometimes it's to see if i'll talk to him.
when i don't, he'll im me with something stupid.
like... "-sigh-"
and wait for me to react.
sometimes, he signs on just to tell me how much he hates me.
i think he does that one just to make him believe it himself.
other times, he'll start talking to me like we're friends again.
that's pretty much the 3 things he does.
i s'pose it just depends on what kind of mood he's in.
and, trust me, he has enough mood swings to last for the world.
first, he's the sweetest thing ever, then he's yelling at me because i dumped him almost a year ago.
I DON'T GET IT.
does /anyone/ get why he does the things he does?
please.
just tell me how he can think that driving anyone to hate themselves is a good thing.
i'll love you forever.
xox,
the confused one.
that's it.
i'm done with people treating me like shit.
people think i only do things because i don't care about their feelings when, really, it is them not caring about my feelings.
does he really think that every time he tells me i screwed up it doesn't hurt?
because it does.
heartbreak is the worst thing in the world, and, being who he is, you would think he'd know that.
obviously not.
i will give you a few quotes straight from the jackass himself;;
x
him: since ur going to act like i thought i could try to start again with u but this just ended it
x
him: -shakes head- u just lost my trust
me: i lost it before, i thought.
him: yeah but gain some anyways now its all gone
x
him: ur a jerk that doesnt care if she hurts anyone just as lobng as shes happy shes fine
x
him: oh and im blocking u
x
the last one is hilarious.
kara knows why.
you see; this has become a daily routine for me.
he'll get mad at me for something i screwed up.
everyone makes mistakes.
anyway.
i've stopped caring.
so he'll be like, "i'm blocking you. bye."
and i'll simply say, "bye."
[i used to stop him, but then i got used to it and now i don't bother.]
and then he'll block me.
two second later?
he comes back online.
and IMs me.
sometimes it's to see if i'll talk to him.
when i don't, he'll im me with something stupid.
like... "-sigh-"
and wait for me to react.
sometimes, he signs on just to tell me how much he hates me.
i think he does that one just to make him believe it himself.
other times, he'll start talking to me like we're friends again.
that's pretty much the 3 things he does.
i s'pose it just depends on what kind of mood he's in.
and, trust me, he has enough mood swings to last for the world.
first, he's the sweetest thing ever, then he's yelling at me because i dumped him almost a year ago.
I DON'T GET IT.
does /anyone/ get why he does the things he does?
please.
just tell me how he can think that driving anyone to hate themselves is a good thing.
i'll love you forever.
xox,
the confused one.
Saturday, February 9, 2008
DON'T FORGET [to (remember) me]
so.
okay.
i'm writing this in addition to yesterday's post because my feelings change... a lot.
and today..
i got some sense knocked into me.
how, i can't say.
srsly.
people would get mad.
but, anyway, i've decided to butt out of people's business.
and i think everyone else should too.
what does on between him and her is their business, not everyone else's.
i know other people agree with me when i say that they aren't made for each other.
but they'll learn it soon enough.
it really isn't anyone else's problem, except theirs.
it's obvious that they both love each other...
well.
it's obvious he loves her.
and i think she loves him too.
we'll see.
but, really people, stay out of it.
i know i'm being a hypocrite, but i've decided to butt out now, and everyone else should, too.
i know they're doing it because they care, but they should just let him and her work it out by themselves.
because they're both happy with the relationship right now, so let them be.
i'm gonna.
and if i can, you sure should be able to.
i /love/ him and i'm staying out of it.
learn from me, will you?
it's not like they're gonna marry each other or something.
we're only in middle school.
people shouldn't be saying "i love you" every day in the first place.
[yes. that was hypocritical of me.]
but...
i don't know.
just let them be.
please?
thanks.
<3
Paige
okay.
i'm writing this in addition to yesterday's post because my feelings change... a lot.
and today..
i got some sense knocked into me.
how, i can't say.
srsly.
people would get mad.
but, anyway, i've decided to butt out of people's business.
and i think everyone else should too.
what does on between him and her is their business, not everyone else's.
i know other people agree with me when i say that they aren't made for each other.
but they'll learn it soon enough.
it really isn't anyone else's problem, except theirs.
it's obvious that they both love each other...
well.
it's obvious he loves her.
and i think she loves him too.
we'll see.
but, really people, stay out of it.
i know i'm being a hypocrite, but i've decided to butt out now, and everyone else should, too.
i know they're doing it because they care, but they should just let him and her work it out by themselves.
because they're both happy with the relationship right now, so let them be.
i'm gonna.
and if i can, you sure should be able to.
i /love/ him and i'm staying out of it.
learn from me, will you?
it's not like they're gonna marry each other or something.
we're only in middle school.
people shouldn't be saying "i love you" every day in the first place.
[yes. that was hypocritical of me.]
but...
i don't know.
just let them be.
please?
thanks.
<3
Paige
Friday, February 8, 2008
you're gone [i've moved on]♥
BUT IT ONLY WOULD'VE TAKEN TWO SECONDS TO SAY GOODBYE.
sorry.
i have a recent jonas brothers obsession.
anyway.
well, i haven't posted in a while, so i thought it was time i filled you in on my life and such.
i got a new babysitting job while i start today at 4:30.
i'm not really excited, but really all i have to entertain a little kid.
it can't be /thaaat/ hard.
we're gonna be at hampshire college with a track and a game room... so it should be fine.
moving on with life.
last night i decided i was over him.
i dunno something just clicked in my mind and i decided that i deserved better.
but this morning i woke up and went to school and the click unclicked and now i like him again.
i really have to stop with this.
really.
now moving on to him and her.
apparently they got in a fight or something?
i'm not really sure what happened, but they ignored each other all day.
and i shouldn't have been surprised.
they don't hang out anyway.
i think that she hangs out with her friends because he's with his friends...
and then he's with his friends because she's with her friends.
not that it's really any of my business.
ah well.
i will continue to make it my business, even though it's not. (:
i just care about this guy, even when we hate each other.
it's complicated because i want him to be happy, but i know he's not with her.
they can say they love each other but THEY DON'T.
and i know i can't say what other people can, but it've been in love before.
when you're in love, you want to be with that person every minute of every day.
and since they both ignore each other [she ignores him, sorry] they can't be in love.
and i know we're teenagers, so we shouldn't be in love in the first place.
then again, there isn't an age limit on love.
but to be boyfriend and girlfriend you should at least spend /some/ time together.
i'm serious.
well, i bet you've had enough of my rant...
TOO BAD.
ima keep going. (:
so this couple...
actually, i've run out of things to say about them.
it's not that i hate either of them.
i actually think they're both nice people [so we don't have a repeat of last time]...
they just don't belong in this world as a couple.
some people are made for each other, they aren't.
and there will come a day when everyone realizes i'm right.
-nodnod-
let's hope that day comes soon.
love&kisses&hugs to my girls,
Paige
sorry.
i have a recent jonas brothers obsession.
anyway.
well, i haven't posted in a while, so i thought it was time i filled you in on my life and such.
i got a new babysitting job while i start today at 4:30.
i'm not really excited, but really all i have to entertain a little kid.
it can't be /thaaat/ hard.
we're gonna be at hampshire college with a track and a game room... so it should be fine.
moving on with life.
last night i decided i was over him.
i dunno something just clicked in my mind and i decided that i deserved better.
but this morning i woke up and went to school and the click unclicked and now i like him again.
i really have to stop with this.
really.
now moving on to him and her.
apparently they got in a fight or something?
i'm not really sure what happened, but they ignored each other all day.
and i shouldn't have been surprised.
they don't hang out anyway.
i think that she hangs out with her friends because he's with his friends...
and then he's with his friends because she's with her friends.
not that it's really any of my business.
ah well.
i will continue to make it my business, even though it's not. (:
i just care about this guy, even when we hate each other.
it's complicated because i want him to be happy, but i know he's not with her.
they can say they love each other but THEY DON'T.
and i know i can't say what other people can, but it've been in love before.
when you're in love, you want to be with that person every minute of every day.
and since they both ignore each other [she ignores him, sorry] they can't be in love.
and i know we're teenagers, so we shouldn't be in love in the first place.
then again, there isn't an age limit on love.
but to be boyfriend and girlfriend you should at least spend /some/ time together.
i'm serious.
well, i bet you've had enough of my rant...
TOO BAD.
ima keep going. (:
so this couple...
actually, i've run out of things to say about them.
it's not that i hate either of them.
i actually think they're both nice people [so we don't have a repeat of last time]...
they just don't belong in this world as a couple.
some people are made for each other, they aren't.
and there will come a day when everyone realizes i'm right.
-nodnod-
let's hope that day comes soon.
love&kisses&hugs to my girls,
Paige
Wednesday, January 30, 2008
woah [they're beauties]
The Boyfriend List
by Paige
1. Adam (But the wedding was canceled)
2. Patrick S. (But then he moved)
3. Jeffery (But he dated everyone)
4. Jonathan (But we never really talked)
5. Frankie (But we try not to think about it)
6. Kevin (But it was out of pity)
7.
8. Joey (But it was only from afar and then I gave up)
9. Patrick B. (But he started to hate me when he found out)
10. Mitchel Musso (But his hair got too long)
11. Tony (But then I screwed things up)
12. Zac Efron (But he has a girl friend)
♥♥
Sunday, January 27, 2008
why [do you ALWAYS do this to me] ?
uggh.
confusing seems to be the word of my life right now.
so, everyone knows i like this guy.
i mean, hell-oh.
it's obvious.
but, like, i'm not supposed to like him and he's not supposed to like me.
but it seems like the saying is true.
you always want what you can't have.
GO FIGURE.
and to add to it?
i don't even know if i like him.
my feelings are so screwed at the moment.
like, he makes fun of me.
he talks about his girl friend around me, even though he knows it bugs me.
he constantly yells at me for no reason.
and every day i go through the same thing.
he's like, "okay. you're a stupid bitch and i'm blocking you."
so i'm like, "whatever."
because i am so sick of caring.
so then he goes offline/blocks me.
guess what happens two seconds later?
he comes back online waiting for me to go crawling back to him.
then when i don't [because even though it may not seem that way, i'm a really strong girl. emotionally and slightly physically], he comes crawling back to me saying, "well i GUESS i'll be your friend if you WANT."
and so i'm like, "i don't really care either way."
then he says, "oh please. you love me. you couldn't live without me."
HAH.
i totally could.
i think.
i mean, like, if i tried/wanted to, i could.
but he's making everything hard.
so then he decides to twist things saying i'm mad at him for not dumping his girl friend for me after i broke his heart twice.
which i'm not.
it's totally understandable.
sure, i wish he loved me, but i don't expect him to.
i dumped him for stupid reasons twice.
i'm not sure i'd still like someone who did that to me.
anyway.
yeah.
so then we work things out and are friends again until the next night when he does it again.
IT'S JUST SO FRICKING ANNOYING.
i can't stand it anymore.
and poor kara has to deal with me every time.
i love her.
she's the best.
srsly.
i don't even know how i handle myself everyday, let alone my friends who have to deal with it.
so, yeah, i'm thankful for her.
and everyone who has ever cheered me up.
you all are the best.
<3
Paige
confusing seems to be the word of my life right now.
so, everyone knows i like this guy.
i mean, hell-oh.
it's obvious.
but, like, i'm not supposed to like him and he's not supposed to like me.
but it seems like the saying is true.
you always want what you can't have.
GO FIGURE.
and to add to it?
i don't even know if i like him.
my feelings are so screwed at the moment.
like, he makes fun of me.
he talks about his girl friend around me, even though he knows it bugs me.
he constantly yells at me for no reason.
and every day i go through the same thing.
he's like, "okay. you're a stupid bitch and i'm blocking you."
so i'm like, "whatever."
because i am so sick of caring.
so then he goes offline/blocks me.
guess what happens two seconds later?
he comes back online waiting for me to go crawling back to him.
then when i don't [because even though it may not seem that way, i'm a really strong girl. emotionally and slightly physically], he comes crawling back to me saying, "well i GUESS i'll be your friend if you WANT."
and so i'm like, "i don't really care either way."
then he says, "oh please. you love me. you couldn't live without me."
HAH.
i totally could.
i think.
i mean, like, if i tried/wanted to, i could.
but he's making everything hard.
so then he decides to twist things saying i'm mad at him for not dumping his girl friend for me after i broke his heart twice.
which i'm not.
it's totally understandable.
sure, i wish he loved me, but i don't expect him to.
i dumped him for stupid reasons twice.
i'm not sure i'd still like someone who did that to me.
anyway.
yeah.
so then we work things out and are friends again until the next night when he does it again.
IT'S JUST SO FRICKING ANNOYING.
i can't stand it anymore.
and poor kara has to deal with me every time.
i love her.
she's the best.
srsly.
i don't even know how i handle myself everyday, let alone my friends who have to deal with it.
so, yeah, i'm thankful for her.
and everyone who has ever cheered me up.
you all are the best.
<3
Paige
Monday, January 21, 2008
paige and kara in [THE THERAPIST]
my best friend;;
(6:40:16 PM) Kara: okay therepy time cuz im bored
(6:40:20 PM) Kara: hows life?
(6:40:20 PM) Paige: ohgod.
(6:40:24 PM) Paige: fine.
(6:40:38 PM) Kara: how does that make you /feel/?
(6:40:48 PM) Paige: fine.
(6:41:18 PM) Kara: you need to open up ~hand gestures~ more.
(6:44:30 PM) Paige: no i don't. -closes hands-
(6:45:17 PM) Kara: yes you do ~opens hands~
(6:45:48 PM) Paige: NO.I.DON'T. -glues kara's hands together with super glue-
(6:46:21 PM) Kara: YES YOU DO. ~bites paiges hands apart
(6:46:23 PM) Kara: ~
(6:46:31 PM) Paige: ouch !
(6:46:35 PM) Paige: i don't like you.
(6:46:49 PM) Paige: i'm outta here. -stomps out of therapist's office-
(6:46:58 PM) Kara: you /superglued/ my hnds
(6:47:02 PM) Kara: hands*
(6:47:12 PM) Paige: -calls from outside- YOUR PROBLEM.
(6:47:36 PM) Kara: ~calls security~ YOURE PROBLEM NOW
(6:47:56 PM) Paige: -runs awa- YOU'LL NEVER CATCH ME ALIVE, COPPERS.
(6:48:02 PM) Paige: [i saw that in a movie]
(6:48:15 PM) Kara: ~brings out the dogs~ YOU WANNA BET??
(6:48:30 PM) Paige: -pets dogs- awwh. they're sweet. (:
(6:49:43 PM) Kara: okay, shes distracted...SIC!! [or however you spell it.]
(6:49:53 PM) Kara: [im having typing issues]
(6:49:58 PM) Paige: [i see]
(6:50:23 PM) Paige: -runs away from dogs and into house-. phew -wips forehead like there's sweat on it but there isn't.-
(6:50:59 PM) Kara: ~brings out the bombers~
(6:51:07 PM) Kara: [i sound like tony]
(6:51:20 PM) Paige: [did you realize that therapist is like the rapist without spaces?!?!?!?!]
(6:51:26 PM) Paige: ahhh !
(6:51:38 PM) Paige: -sacrifices self- i give up.
(6:51:52 PM) Kara: hahahahahahaha
(6:51:58 PM) Kara: thats hilarioysss
(6:52:02 PM) Paige: yeah.
(6:53:14 PM) Paige: so are we through with this therapist story?
(6:53:53 PM) Kara: i suppose
(6:53:59 PM) Paige: good.
(6:54:04 PM) Paige: cause it's going in my blog.
(6:54:20 PM) Kara: mine too
(6:54:26 PM) Paige: xDD
(6:54:32 PM) Kara: the rapist comment went ito my bi
(6:54:40 PM) Paige: nice.
(6:54:46 PM) Kara: yup
(6:40:16 PM) Kara: okay therepy time cuz im bored
(6:40:20 PM) Kara: hows life?
(6:40:20 PM) Paige: ohgod.
(6:40:24 PM) Paige: fine.
(6:40:38 PM) Kara: how does that make you /feel/?
(6:40:48 PM) Paige: fine.
(6:41:18 PM) Kara: you need to open up ~hand gestures~ more.
(6:44:30 PM) Paige: no i don't. -closes hands-
(6:45:17 PM) Kara: yes you do ~opens hands~
(6:45:48 PM) Paige: NO.I.DON'T. -glues kara's hands together with super glue-
(6:46:21 PM) Kara: YES YOU DO. ~bites paiges hands apart
(6:46:23 PM) Kara: ~
(6:46:31 PM) Paige: ouch !
(6:46:35 PM) Paige: i don't like you.
(6:46:49 PM) Paige: i'm outta here. -stomps out of therapist's office-
(6:46:58 PM) Kara: you /superglued/ my hnds
(6:47:02 PM) Kara: hands*
(6:47:12 PM) Paige: -calls from outside- YOUR PROBLEM.
(6:47:36 PM) Kara: ~calls security~ YOURE PROBLEM NOW
(6:47:56 PM) Paige: -runs awa- YOU'LL NEVER CATCH ME ALIVE, COPPERS.
(6:48:02 PM) Paige: [i saw that in a movie]
(6:48:15 PM) Kara: ~brings out the dogs~ YOU WANNA BET??
(6:48:30 PM) Paige: -pets dogs- awwh. they're sweet. (:
(6:49:43 PM) Kara: okay, shes distracted...SIC!! [or however you spell it.]
(6:49:53 PM) Kara: [im having typing issues]
(6:49:58 PM) Paige: [i see]
(6:50:23 PM) Paige: -runs away from dogs and into house-. phew -wips forehead like there's sweat on it but there isn't.-
(6:50:59 PM) Kara: ~brings out the bombers~
(6:51:07 PM) Kara: [i sound like tony]
(6:51:20 PM) Paige: [did you realize that therapist is like the rapist without spaces?!?!?!?!]
(6:51:26 PM) Paige: ahhh !
(6:51:38 PM) Paige: -sacrifices self- i give up.
(6:51:52 PM) Kara: hahahahahahaha
(6:51:58 PM) Kara: thats hilarioysss
(6:52:02 PM) Paige: yeah.
(6:53:14 PM) Paige: so are we through with this therapist story?
(6:53:53 PM) Kara: i suppose
(6:53:59 PM) Paige: good.
(6:54:04 PM) Paige: cause it's going in my blog.
(6:54:20 PM) Kara: mine too
(6:54:26 PM) Paige: xDD
(6:54:32 PM) Kara: the rapist comment went ito my bi
(6:54:40 PM) Paige: nice.
(6:54:46 PM) Kara: yup
Saturday, January 19, 2008
Thursday, January 17, 2008
my best friend [(intheworld)]
our love?
it exists;;;
(8:43:37 PM) Paige: i'm looking at a list of pet names to call you bf/gf.
(8:43:48 PM) Paige: so i'ma list my names for you, my boy friend...
(8:43:49 PM) Kara: hahaha, i love that one
(8:43:50 PM) Paige: Bunbuns
(8:43:56 PM) Kara: hahahahahahah
(8:44:04 PM) Paige: CheekyMonkey
(8:44:10 PM) Paige: CheeseBall
(8:44:16 PM) Paige: ChunkyBunny
(8:44:25 PM) Paige: Chicken
[that's you. xDDD]
(8:44:31 PM) Kara: hahahhahahahahaha
(8:44:50 PM) Paige: Doobie
(8:44:57 PM) Paige: Dork
xD
(8:45:01 PM) Kara: ~is literally lol-ing and is prepared for her mom to be like "wtf?"~
(8:45:08 PM) Paige: ahahahaha/
(8:45:14 PM) Paige: Egghead
(8:45:23 PM) Paige: Fluffer-Nutter
(8:45:28 PM) Paige: Frou-Frou
(8:45:35 PM) Paige: GangstaBaby
(8:45:41 PM) Kara: i like that 1
(8:45:46 PM) Paige: HandsomeBabyBoo
(8:45:58 PM) Paige: Huggalump
(8:46:09 PM) Paige: okay -pauses writing funny names that make kara lol-
...
(8:48:59 PM) Paige: -goes back to posting names i'ma call kara on the field trip tomorrow that will make her laugh in the middle of a quiet museum.-
(8:49:11 PM) Paige: Jujube
(8:49:19 PM) Kara: thanks
(8:49:33 PM) Paige: LadyKiller
[that makes you sound like you smell bad.]
(8:49:37 PM) Paige: xDD
(8:49:50 PM) Paige: Lumlums
(8:50:00 PM) Kara: im making one for us cuz im breaking up with you
(8:50:01 PM) Paige: Monkey
(8:50:04 PM) Paige: =ooo
(8:50:07 PM) Paige: noooooo !
(8:50:13 PM) Paige: I CAN CHANGE ! -clings-
(8:50:29 PM) Paige: don't leave me, Mookie-PookieBear
(8:50:31 PM) Paige: <3
(8:50:45 PM) Paige: /Muffinhead
(8:50:54 PM) Paige: /Muggles
(8:51:08 PM) Paige: /NumNums
(8:52:31 PM) Paige: /PickleHead
(8:52:39 PM) Paige: /PicklePie
(8:52:39 PM) Kara: Dear Paige,
I'm terribly sorry I had to do this through a letter, this might save our asses and make me look better, now that we're both sleeping with other people.. This note will be the last memory
(8:52:48 PM) Kara: lookin back.. Don't let it get you all upset inside, It was completely your fault, no doubt about it. It is because of your history of farting problems that keep me from being even remotely interested in continuing this relationship with you.
(8:52:58 PM) Kara: You'd be much better off finding a person that can deal with fun way you Never shaved your arm pits. I might miss certain things about you such as the time you came to my house and stunk the bathroom up
(8:53:06 PM) Kara: I'm glad this is done and we're going separate directions for good. I think you'll find someone to have an unhealthy relationship based on physical attraction. And hopefully we will be incredibly far away.
Have a nice life,Kara
(8:53:13 PM) Paige: -laughs through her tears-
(8:53:18 PM) Kara: lol
(8:53:30 PM) Paige: but i still love you, my Poopsie
(8:53:33 PM) Paige: (:
(8:53:46 PM) Paige: /Punkin´butt
(8:53:58 PM) Paige: /SchmooookyPookiePooo
(8:54:06 PM) Paige: /Schmoopy
(8:54:22 PM) Paige: /Shmoops
(8:54:30 PM) Paige: /ShoogieWoogie
(8:54:31 PM) Kara: TwinkleToes
(8:54:39 PM) Kara: WinkyDink
(8:54:50 PM) Kara: TootsieWootsy
(8:55:00 PM) Kara: Sweetthang
(8:55:05 PM) Paige: SweetiepieFacecake
(8:55:08 PM) Kara: Tator-Tot
(8:55:27 PM) Kara: LoveBoodle
(8:55:32 PM) Paige: Yummers !
i pick that. you are now call yummers. end of story. (:
(8:55:41 PM) Kara: Lambchop
(8:55:56 PM) Kara: and ill call you tator -tot
(8:56:05 PM) Paige: hahahahahaha. okay, yummers. (:
(8:56:16 PM) Kara: okay...jeremy
(8:56:26 PM) Paige: xDDDDDDDD
(8:56:30 PM) Paige: i'm srsly laughing.
(8:56:33 PM) Paige: out loud.
(8:56:39 PM) Kara: hahahaha
(8:59:03 PM) Paige: i'm making a blog post just for this conversation.
(8:59:05 PM) Paige: xDD
(8:59:12 PM) Kara: ooohkay!!
<3 BFF (:
it exists;;;
(8:43:37 PM) Paige: i'm looking at a list of pet names to call you bf/gf.
(8:43:48 PM) Paige: so i'ma list my names for you, my boy friend...
(8:43:49 PM) Kara: hahaha, i love that one
(8:43:50 PM) Paige: Bunbuns
(8:43:56 PM) Kara: hahahahahahah
(8:44:04 PM) Paige: CheekyMonkey
(8:44:10 PM) Paige: CheeseBall
(8:44:16 PM) Paige: ChunkyBunny
(8:44:25 PM) Paige: Chicken
[that's you. xDDD]
(8:44:31 PM) Kara: hahahhahahahahaha
(8:44:50 PM) Paige: Doobie
(8:44:57 PM) Paige: Dork
xD
(8:45:01 PM) Kara: ~is literally lol-ing and is prepared for her mom to be like "wtf?"~
(8:45:08 PM) Paige: ahahahaha/
(8:45:14 PM) Paige: Egghead
(8:45:23 PM) Paige: Fluffer-Nutter
(8:45:28 PM) Paige: Frou-Frou
(8:45:35 PM) Paige: GangstaBaby
(8:45:41 PM) Kara: i like that 1
(8:45:46 PM) Paige: HandsomeBabyBoo
(8:45:58 PM) Paige: Huggalump
(8:46:09 PM) Paige: okay -pauses writing funny names that make kara lol-
...
(8:48:59 PM) Paige: -goes back to posting names i'ma call kara on the field trip tomorrow that will make her laugh in the middle of a quiet museum.-
(8:49:11 PM) Paige: Jujube
(8:49:19 PM) Kara: thanks
(8:49:33 PM) Paige: LadyKiller
[that makes you sound like you smell bad.]
(8:49:37 PM) Paige: xDD
(8:49:50 PM) Paige: Lumlums
(8:50:00 PM) Kara: im making one for us cuz im breaking up with you
(8:50:01 PM) Paige: Monkey
(8:50:04 PM) Paige: =ooo
(8:50:07 PM) Paige: noooooo !
(8:50:13 PM) Paige: I CAN CHANGE ! -clings-
(8:50:29 PM) Paige: don't leave me, Mookie-PookieBear
(8:50:31 PM) Paige: <3
(8:50:45 PM) Paige: /Muffinhead
(8:50:54 PM) Paige: /Muggles
(8:51:08 PM) Paige: /NumNums
(8:52:31 PM) Paige: /PickleHead
(8:52:39 PM) Paige: /PicklePie
(8:52:39 PM) Kara: Dear Paige,
I'm terribly sorry I had to do this through a letter, this might save our asses and make me look better, now that we're both sleeping with other people.. This note will be the last memory
(8:52:48 PM) Kara: lookin back.. Don't let it get you all upset inside, It was completely your fault, no doubt about it. It is because of your history of farting problems that keep me from being even remotely interested in continuing this relationship with you.
(8:52:58 PM) Kara: You'd be much better off finding a person that can deal with fun way you Never shaved your arm pits. I might miss certain things about you such as the time you came to my house and stunk the bathroom up
(8:53:06 PM) Kara: I'm glad this is done and we're going separate directions for good. I think you'll find someone to have an unhealthy relationship based on physical attraction. And hopefully we will be incredibly far away.
Have a nice life,Kara
(8:53:13 PM) Paige: -laughs through her tears-
(8:53:18 PM) Kara: lol
(8:53:30 PM) Paige: but i still love you, my Poopsie
(8:53:33 PM) Paige: (:
(8:53:46 PM) Paige: /Punkin´butt
(8:53:58 PM) Paige: /SchmooookyPookiePooo
(8:54:06 PM) Paige: /Schmoopy
(8:54:22 PM) Paige: /Shmoops
(8:54:30 PM) Paige: /ShoogieWoogie
(8:54:31 PM) Kara: TwinkleToes
(8:54:39 PM) Kara: WinkyDink
(8:54:50 PM) Kara: TootsieWootsy
(8:55:00 PM) Kara: Sweetthang
(8:55:05 PM) Paige: SweetiepieFacecake
(8:55:08 PM) Kara: Tator-Tot
(8:55:27 PM) Kara: LoveBoodle
(8:55:32 PM) Paige: Yummers !
i pick that. you are now call yummers. end of story. (:
(8:55:41 PM) Kara: Lambchop
(8:55:56 PM) Kara: and ill call you tator -tot
(8:56:05 PM) Paige: hahahahahaha. okay, yummers. (:
(8:56:16 PM) Kara: okay...jeremy
(8:56:26 PM) Paige: xDDDDDDDD
(8:56:30 PM) Paige: i'm srsly laughing.
(8:56:33 PM) Paige: out loud.
(8:56:39 PM) Kara: hahahaha
(8:59:03 PM) Paige: i'm making a blog post just for this conversation.
(8:59:05 PM) Paige: xDD
(8:59:12 PM) Kara: ooohkay!!
<3 BFF (:
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
don't try to label me (HYPOCRITE)
hi there. (:
i really hate fake smiles. -grins widely-
but i end up using them all the time anyway. -smile drops-
i really wanted to post here for a few reasons.
1. i was bored and this is one way i use to get rid of my boredom.
2. i got a lot to say to you. yeah i got a lot to sayyyyy.... -sings- anyway. no. i really do have some stuff to say.
starting with people and ending with people.
well, all my shit is about people.
okayso.
people always tell me things i don't want to hear, and they know it too.
because they'll start their sentences with, "i'm not supposed to tell you but..." or "you probably won't want to hear this but..."
THEN DON'T TELL ME.
i can live my life perfectly happy without knowing some of the crap people have told me.
do i really care what my ex is doing with other girls?
do i really care if my best friend talked shit about me?
i'll let you think about that
...
...
...
correct answer; NO.
i prefer to live my life in a perfect fairytale, so let me live that way.
kay?
thank.you.
next topic; perfection.
our society is so stupid.
all models are perfect, as well as singers and actresses.
you're either fat and beautiful or skinny and beautiful.
there is no normal.
normal is not beautiful, normal is just normal.
and so, i figure, normal is where i fit in.
and i don't want to be normal, or fat.
i want to be skinny, but doesn't everyone?
i just can't be happy with myself and it bugs me.
moving along.
BRITNEY SPEARS IS FUCKING ANNOYING AND NO ONE LIKES HER SO SHE SHOULD GET THE HELL OUT OF THE NEWS.
had to get that out, that's all. (:
moving on again...
boys?
it's stupid how they make fun of us because their whole life is one big PMS.
at least they only have to deal with us once a month.
we have to deal with them every day.
who has it easy now?
NEXT.
hypocritcal drama whore
[hdw]
it sounds like a disease.
but, then again, it pretty much acts like one too.
you my be a HDW if...
1. you enjoy talking about people behind their backs.
2. spreading rumors is considered a hobby for you.
3. you have more enemies than friends.
4. you hate it when you hear a rumor about yourself, true or false.
if two or more of these apply to you, you may just have HDW syndrome.
please get yourself a therapist, thanks. (:
LAST THING.
ohwait.
i s'pose i'm done.
comment/hate me/love me.
doesn't make a difference.
hearts&fakesmiles,
Paige
i really hate fake smiles. -grins widely-
but i end up using them all the time anyway. -smile drops-
i really wanted to post here for a few reasons.
1. i was bored and this is one way i use to get rid of my boredom.
2. i got a lot to say to you. yeah i got a lot to sayyyyy.... -sings- anyway. no. i really do have some stuff to say.
starting with people and ending with people.
well, all my shit is about people.
okayso.
people always tell me things i don't want to hear, and they know it too.
because they'll start their sentences with, "i'm not supposed to tell you but..." or "you probably won't want to hear this but..."
THEN DON'T TELL ME.
i can live my life perfectly happy without knowing some of the crap people have told me.
do i really care what my ex is doing with other girls?
do i really care if my best friend talked shit about me?
i'll let you think about that
...
...
...
correct answer; NO.
i prefer to live my life in a perfect fairytale, so let me live that way.
kay?
thank.you.
next topic; perfection.
our society is so stupid.
all models are perfect, as well as singers and actresses.
you're either fat and beautiful or skinny and beautiful.
there is no normal.
normal is not beautiful, normal is just normal.
and so, i figure, normal is where i fit in.
and i don't want to be normal, or fat.
i want to be skinny, but doesn't everyone?
i just can't be happy with myself and it bugs me.
moving along.
BRITNEY SPEARS IS FUCKING ANNOYING AND NO ONE LIKES HER SO SHE SHOULD GET THE HELL OUT OF THE NEWS.
had to get that out, that's all. (:
moving on again...
boys?
it's stupid how they make fun of us because their whole life is one big PMS.
at least they only have to deal with us once a month.
we have to deal with them every day.
who has it easy now?
NEXT.
hypocritcal drama whore
[hdw]
it sounds like a disease.
but, then again, it pretty much acts like one too.
you my be a HDW if...
1. you enjoy talking about people behind their backs.
2. spreading rumors is considered a hobby for you.
3. you have more enemies than friends.
4. you hate it when you hear a rumor about yourself, true or false.
if two or more of these apply to you, you may just have HDW syndrome.
please get yourself a therapist, thanks. (:
LAST THING.
ohwait.
i s'pose i'm done.
comment/hate me/love me.
doesn't make a difference.
hearts&fakesmiles,
Paige
Saturday, January 12, 2008
{{you're}} on my heart just like a {{tatoo}}
two posts in one day !
goes to show how utterly repulsive my life is.
so apparently i've stated that someone was a bitch in my blog.
yet, i haven't said that word once.
go ahead.
look for yourself.
so me & kara are pissed at this girl because she spreads rumors about everyone else, but hates it when people lie about her.
she's what we like to call a "hypocritical drama whore".
-nodnod-
learn it.
'cause she is.
and so this is cleared up right here in bold lettering;;
ERIKA IS NOT NOR WILL EVER BE A BITCH.
until she does something to me that actually qualifies as "bitchy".
because, at the moment, she has done zip-o to me.
in fact, we never really talked that much.
why i would call someone i barely know a bitch is beyond me.
it's really upsetting that something i never said that was only a few words anyway has escalated.
it frankly just pisses me off that people who were once your best friends turn on you so quickly.
hm.
who knew?
--
Paige
goes to show how utterly repulsive my life is.
so apparently i've stated that someone was a bitch in my blog.
yet, i haven't said that word once.
go ahead.
look for yourself.
so me & kara are pissed at this girl because she spreads rumors about everyone else, but hates it when people lie about her.
she's what we like to call a "hypocritical drama whore".
-nodnod-
learn it.
'cause she is.
and so this is cleared up right here in bold lettering;;
ERIKA IS NOT NOR WILL EVER BE A BITCH.
until she does something to me that actually qualifies as "bitchy".
because, at the moment, she has done zip-o to me.
in fact, we never really talked that much.
why i would call someone i barely know a bitch is beyond me.
it's really upsetting that something i never said that was only a few words anyway has escalated.
it frankly just pisses me off that people who were once your best friends turn on you so quickly.
hm.
who knew?
--
Paige
well that's [ree.tard.ed.]
let me tell you what happened to me on friday.
it has turned me off of drama forever.
not that i liked it before...
ah ! anyway...
bridgette* walked up to me after lunch and was like, "hey paige, can i ask you something?"
this left me confused.
you see, i never /ever/ talk to bridgette. in fact, all my friends hate her, and i've heard she hates me too so... -shrugs-
but i said, "sure".
so she asked me if i called tanya* a bitch.
so then i was like WTF?
but i didn't say that.
i said, "what? no. i never said anything like that."
so then she goes, "well that's what addie* said."
which made zero sense to me.
i never talk to addie online, and i seldom talk to her in person.
in fact; i don't talk to anyone online except kara. and occasionally kat, michelle, and tony.
so by this point, i was mad, but i didn't let it show. i wasn't about to explode in front of anyone.
so i'm like, "i never talk to addie. and i never said anything bad about tanya. i think she's a perfectly good person."
which is true.
and everyone thinks i hate her guts because she's dating my ex who everyone thinks i like, but i really kinda don't anymore.
but i hate it when people hate people just because they're dating who the other person likes.
i'm sorry; it's immature.
so i'm happy for both of them.
i'd be more happy if she took part in the relationship; but that's a whole different story.
but is that drama retarded or what?
oh.
after i explained, bridgette just kinda shrugged and walked away.
and later my friends told me that bridgette was looking for my e-mail and screen name.
it's all too weird, if you ask me.
so now there's a rumor going around about me that i clearly stated was /nawt/ true.
but i'll deal with it.
because i don't care what people think about me anyway.
<3 Paige
* names have been changed to protect the not-so-innocent.
IM me if you'd like me to clarify their identities. (:
it has turned me off of drama forever.
not that i liked it before...
ah ! anyway...
bridgette* walked up to me after lunch and was like, "hey paige, can i ask you something?"
this left me confused.
you see, i never /ever/ talk to bridgette. in fact, all my friends hate her, and i've heard she hates me too so... -shrugs-
but i said, "sure".
so she asked me if i called tanya* a bitch.
so then i was like WTF?
but i didn't say that.
i said, "what? no. i never said anything like that."
so then she goes, "well that's what addie* said."
which made zero sense to me.
i never talk to addie online, and i seldom talk to her in person.
in fact; i don't talk to anyone online except kara. and occasionally kat, michelle, and tony.
so by this point, i was mad, but i didn't let it show. i wasn't about to explode in front of anyone.
so i'm like, "i never talk to addie. and i never said anything bad about tanya. i think she's a perfectly good person."
which is true.
and everyone thinks i hate her guts because she's dating my ex who everyone thinks i like, but i really kinda don't anymore.
but i hate it when people hate people just because they're dating who the other person likes.
i'm sorry; it's immature.
so i'm happy for both of them.
i'd be more happy if she took part in the relationship; but that's a whole different story.
but is that drama retarded or what?
oh.
after i explained, bridgette just kinda shrugged and walked away.
and later my friends told me that bridgette was looking for my e-mail and screen name.
it's all too weird, if you ask me.
so now there's a rumor going around about me that i clearly stated was /nawt/ true.
but i'll deal with it.
because i don't care what people think about me anyway.
<3 Paige
* names have been changed to protect the not-so-innocent.
IM me if you'd like me to clarify their identities. (:
Wednesday, January 9, 2008
say {[i don't wanna be in love]}
well..
i figured instead of answering everyone IMing me asking what's wrong, i'd just post a blog so i only have to say this once.
i don't want to say it at all, but i figure that no one should be left in the dark...
i'm so sick of this shit that tony's giving me. [AND I DON'T EVEN CARE THAT I USED HIS REAL NAME]
let's start with last night;
we were talking normally and stuff, then all of a sudden, he's like, "i can't talk to you anymore. goodbye forever."
so i'm left thinking "WTF?"
so i beg&beg&beg him not to leave, and he finally gives in.
then he tells me how much he loves me and is so sorry.
so i fall for his sweet lies again.
which was obviously a mistakes because TODAY...
we were talking normally again.
then we got into a conversation about how he barely loves me anymore so we can be friends.
so i'm like, "cool."
then he decides he has to go because he can't talk to me for long periods of time, or something crappy like that.
so i'm like, "okay?"
then we got into a fight.
it's vague to me what actually took place, i was too shocked, i believe.
anyway.
now he's blocking me on everything he has.
and you know what?
i don't care.
i think i'm over him.
well.
i can say that, but i know that the second he comes crawling back to me, i'll love him again.
i'm strange like that.
but, this is a huge step.
because now i think i can live life without him.
so i'm moving along. (:
and i'm gonna go watch videos of me, kara & sabrina at my birthday party.
because they always make me smile. (:
love&feel-better hugs,
Paige
i figured instead of answering everyone IMing me asking what's wrong, i'd just post a blog so i only have to say this once.
i don't want to say it at all, but i figure that no one should be left in the dark...
i'm so sick of this shit that tony's giving me. [AND I DON'T EVEN CARE THAT I USED HIS REAL NAME]
let's start with last night;
we were talking normally and stuff, then all of a sudden, he's like, "i can't talk to you anymore. goodbye forever."
so i'm left thinking "WTF?"
so i beg&beg&beg him not to leave, and he finally gives in.
then he tells me how much he loves me and is so sorry.
so i fall for his sweet lies again.
which was obviously a mistakes because TODAY...
we were talking normally again.
then we got into a conversation about how he barely loves me anymore so we can be friends.
so i'm like, "cool."
then he decides he has to go because he can't talk to me for long periods of time, or something crappy like that.
so i'm like, "okay?"
then we got into a fight.
it's vague to me what actually took place, i was too shocked, i believe.
anyway.
now he's blocking me on everything he has.
and you know what?
i don't care.
i think i'm over him.
well.
i can say that, but i know that the second he comes crawling back to me, i'll love him again.
i'm strange like that.
but, this is a huge step.
because now i think i can live life without him.
so i'm moving along. (:
and i'm gonna go watch videos of me, kara & sabrina at my birthday party.
because they always make me smile. (:
love&feel-better hugs,
Paige
Saturday, January 5, 2008
why should i care? [poemific]
Mistakes & Heart Aches
I hate you.
I love you.
Your blue eyes,
Your sweet lies.
Our pointless talks,
The long walks.
Your strong hug,
My addictive drug.
That first kiss,
Something I’ll definitely miss.
Basketball games,
Old flames.
We’ve been through it all,
And never thought we’d fall.
The break-up.
The make-up.
One mistake,
Two hearts ache.
He finds a new girl,
Their relationship she tries to unfurl.
Nothing ever works,
A secret seems to lurk.
He says he still loves her,
And misses everything they were.
She foolishly believes him,
And begins to cater to his every whim.
But then he gives up again,
Scribbles out her name in dark black pen.
She’s left with a broken heart,
A ruined work of art.
I love you.
Your blue eyes,
Your sweet lies.
Our pointless talks,
The long walks.
Your strong hug,
My addictive drug.
That first kiss,
Something I’ll definitely miss.
Basketball games,
Old flames.
We’ve been through it all,
And never thought we’d fall.
The break-up.
The make-up.
One mistake,
Two hearts ache.
He finds a new girl,
Their relationship she tries to unfurl.
Nothing ever works,
A secret seems to lurk.
He says he still loves her,
And misses everything they were.
She foolishly believes him,
And begins to cater to his every whim.
But then he gives up again,
Scribbles out her name in dark black pen.
She’s left with a broken heart,
A ruined work of art.
Both left believing another.
His friends think she’s playing a game,
Hers say the same.
They both know it wasn’t supposed to end this way,
But what do you do when you have no say?
love&hugs,
Paige
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