i need to stop [now]

this love isn't even healthy anymore.
i'm attracted to the worst possible person i could choose to love ever.
and it's stupid because i hate him so much, but i love him.
which makes no sense.
and he doesn't understand either.
which makes it way worse.
i've apologized five million times, but nothing seems to really get through, you know?
and i should accept the fact that it's over, but i can't let go because what if the moment i decide to forget him, he comes back.
it's that last strand of hope that keeps me hanging on.
and i'm not giving up until i get him back.
girls can lie all they want, but she doesn't love him as much as i did.
and nothing can change that.
he doesn't understand what i'd do if he'd take me back.
but i don't know how to show it to him.
so now i'm not happy.
like zac efron.
maybe i should marry him<3
- Paige

PS. i wish it was christmas..