[idea inspired by kat because, well, she's amazing.]
i wish for a true love that would never end
i wish for real friends that won't backstab you
i wish that my friends were a lot happier
i wish i could /make/ my friends happier
i wish for a hug, someone to hold me and never want to let go
i wish for zac efron
i wish that kara could get corbin bleu
i wish that my life was more exciting
i wish for world peace [even if that sounded dorky]
i wish for acceptance of everyone regarding size and race [now i'm turning into tracy turnblad]
i wish people would stop being so fake
i wish everyone would stop lying
i wish my friends would stop fading away from me
i wish my friends from camp went to my school
i wish i could feel able to love again
i wish for blue eyes
i wish for /him/
i wish i could sing
i wish for him to love me again
i wish for the perfect romance
i wish i could stop crying myself to sleep
i wish i had someone who i thought i could really trust
i wish there was no such thing as internet predators
i wish that paparazzi would stop messing with other people's lives
i wish for a plot for me & kat's role play
i wish for a good grade on my science project
i wish i never had to grow up
iloveyou
Tuesday, November 27, 2007
Saturday, November 17, 2007
so[well]hi
i haven't written in a little bit.
i'm totally stressed.
but, on the bright side, my birthday is in less than a week!
WOOT!
why am i totally stressed, you ask?
well, see, it's the same old same old.
the one thing i've been complaining about in here since i first started writing.
him.
see, he got a girl friend.
but that, i don't really care about. because since i broke up with him, he has a right to date whoever he wants.
the thing i hate is that he's constantly telling me that he's just sooooo happy i dumped him cause now i found this other girl who's soooo much better than me.
And then, it turns out that he kissed my best friend.
who wasn't even dating him!
it's not like it was wrong or anything cause they can kiss who they want and they both weren't dating anyone at the time, but still.
he told me and my other best friend that he never liked her in the first place.
so why he kissed her is beyond me.
not to mention he is now denying that he ever kissed said friend.
which just brings me back to the question of who is the liar in this situation?
either way, we both agree with the fact that he's a bad kisser.
which is good. :]
so, i'll stop ranting now.
i bet you're sick of my rants anyway.
ah well.
be prepared for more drama next week. :/
so bye.
- Paige
i'm totally stressed.
but, on the bright side, my birthday is in less than a week!
WOOT!
why am i totally stressed, you ask?
well, see, it's the same old same old.
the one thing i've been complaining about in here since i first started writing.
him.
see, he got a girl friend.
but that, i don't really care about. because since i broke up with him, he has a right to date whoever he wants.
the thing i hate is that he's constantly telling me that he's just sooooo happy i dumped him cause now i found this other girl who's soooo much better than me.
And then, it turns out that he kissed my best friend.
who wasn't even dating him!
it's not like it was wrong or anything cause they can kiss who they want and they both weren't dating anyone at the time, but still.
he told me and my other best friend that he never liked her in the first place.
so why he kissed her is beyond me.
not to mention he is now denying that he ever kissed said friend.
which just brings me back to the question of who is the liar in this situation?
either way, we both agree with the fact that he's a bad kisser.
which is good. :]
so, i'll stop ranting now.
i bet you're sick of my rants anyway.
ah well.
be prepared for more drama next week. :/
so bye.
- Paige
Thursday, November 8, 2007
You know what's annoying... [?]
Tell me if you agree with any of the things below in a comment. I would like to know I'm not totally alone here...
- Isn't it annoying when people say they're your friends, and then go and back stab you?
- Or when people just randomly start ignoring you, even though you haven't said, like, a full sentence to them all day?
- And in addition to that, it's annoying when they won't even tell you why they are ignoring you. I mean, really, if they want you to leave them alone, they should tell you why they're mad. Otherwise, you'll keep bugging them to tell you what made them so upset.
- I hate it when people do things to purposely make you mad just because it's fun.
- And don't even get me started on when boys make fun of you and argue with you just because they like you. Do they SERIOUSLY think that that is going to make us like them..?
- Hypocrites are also obnoxious. They tell you they hate something you do, but they do the SAME THING.
- What about when people think they know everything about you, but really know nothing?
- Or when people make you guilty when you want to hang out with your other friends by saying "-sigh- Well I'll just stay here and be lonely."
- And I hate it when people hate you because you're dating who they like, but you didn't even know they liked the person who you're dating in the first place even though you've asked them if they did, but they denied it. This situation is totally different if the person dating the crush /knows/ you like him. Then the dater is ah-bviously at fault for not asking your permission. Because, technically, whoever admitted to liking him first, has dibs. And when the person who didn't care about your feelings is your "best friend"...? don't even get me started.
I'm not sure if these things annoy you too, or if I just made a complete fool out of myself by saying these things.
Plus, now everyone probably thinks I get mad too easily and will stay away from me.
Don't worry, you guys who are my friends are already amazing. Unless you're one of the people I didn't name, yet I did mention above. xD
Well, I have to go now.
I want to wash this stupid grid from science class off my hand.
<3, Paige.
PS. Don't you hate it when you love someone and hate them at the same time? God knows I do. :[[
- Isn't it annoying when people say they're your friends, and then go and back stab you?
- Or when people just randomly start ignoring you, even though you haven't said, like, a full sentence to them all day?
- And in addition to that, it's annoying when they won't even tell you why they are ignoring you. I mean, really, if they want you to leave them alone, they should tell you why they're mad. Otherwise, you'll keep bugging them to tell you what made them so upset.
- I hate it when people do things to purposely make you mad just because it's fun.
- And don't even get me started on when boys make fun of you and argue with you just because they like you. Do they SERIOUSLY think that that is going to make us like them..?
- Hypocrites are also obnoxious. They tell you they hate something you do, but they do the SAME THING.
- What about when people think they know everything about you, but really know nothing?
- Or when people make you guilty when you want to hang out with your other friends by saying "-sigh- Well I'll just stay here and be lonely."
- And I hate it when people hate you because you're dating who they like, but you didn't even know they liked the person who you're dating in the first place even though you've asked them if they did, but they denied it. This situation is totally different if the person dating the crush /knows/ you like him. Then the dater is ah-bviously at fault for not asking your permission. Because, technically, whoever admitted to liking him first, has dibs. And when the person who didn't care about your feelings is your "best friend"...? don't even get me started.
I'm not sure if these things annoy you too, or if I just made a complete fool out of myself by saying these things.
Plus, now everyone probably thinks I get mad too easily and will stay away from me.
Don't worry, you guys who are my friends are already amazing. Unless you're one of the people I didn't name, yet I did mention above. xD
Well, I have to go now.
I want to wash this stupid grid from science class off my hand.
<3, Paige.
PS. Don't you hate it when you love someone and hate them at the same time? God knows I do. :[[
Sunday, October 28, 2007
[[&& it's [so] complicated]]
I hate this feeling.
I hate it so much.
The one person I've ever truly loved more than anything doesn't like me anymore.
You see, he used to love me.
But then I had to go and screw everything up.
So I really shouldn't be mad at anyone but myself for this screwed up life.
And I'm not.
I don't want to be in love.
I didn't ask for this.
So why did it happen?
I'd like to know myself.
No one understands what it's like to feel this way.
I'm not sure anyone ever will.
I finally found someone who I love everything about.
He was the sweetest person in the world.
Was is the key word.
Because, as I said, everything is so fricking complicated now I don't even know why I'm alive.
I found something to live for, and he was pulled out from under me.
Now all I have is a family and a few friends.
What would you do if you were caught in my situation?
Let me recap for you.
This guy who I'm completely in love with likes me back, but he doesn't want to get hurt again. My "best friend" likes him too and asked him out without my permission. They dated, but he broke up with her because he never really liked her in the first place. So now I still am mad at her. I know she doesn't like me.
Now, you try to live this life.
Tell me what you would do.
And don't give me any "get over him" crap, because it doesn't work.
I've tried.
Just remember, you love him.
-- Paige
I hate it so much.
The one person I've ever truly loved more than anything doesn't like me anymore.
You see, he used to love me.
But then I had to go and screw everything up.
So I really shouldn't be mad at anyone but myself for this screwed up life.
And I'm not.
I don't want to be in love.
I didn't ask for this.
So why did it happen?
I'd like to know myself.
No one understands what it's like to feel this way.
I'm not sure anyone ever will.
I finally found someone who I love everything about.
He was the sweetest person in the world.
Was is the key word.
Because, as I said, everything is so fricking complicated now I don't even know why I'm alive.
I found something to live for, and he was pulled out from under me.
Now all I have is a family and a few friends.
What would you do if you were caught in my situation?
Let me recap for you.
This guy who I'm completely in love with likes me back, but he doesn't want to get hurt again. My "best friend" likes him too and asked him out without my permission. They dated, but he broke up with her because he never really liked her in the first place. So now I still am mad at her. I know she doesn't like me.
Now, you try to live this life.
Tell me what you would do.
And don't give me any "get over him" crap, because it doesn't work.
I've tried.
Just remember, you love him.
-- Paige
Monday, October 22, 2007
School Daze
I have a story to tell y'all.
It happened in Social Studies class and I just found it strangely ironic.
I have this friend (who we will call Suzie) and she has an eraser shaped like a puzzle with a friend's name on every piece. My name fit perfectly with this kid (who we'll call Zac) who I like's piece. So she got bored and started tossing mine and Zac's piece (together) around her desk, throwing it against her binder and stuff, but it wouldn't come apart, but everyone else's did. Then she even tried throwing my other friend's piece at us and nothing. Finally, after much hard work, the pieces separated.
That was the story.
Now here's my interpretation...
See, me and Zac have been through a lot in out relationship and we got through it. We've been through break ups, stupid fights, make-ups, my best friend trying to ruin our relationship, but we've stayed together through it all. And that's kinda what this was like. Suzie was throwing us against things, trying her hardest to break us apart. She even started throwing other people's pieces at us. And through it all, we stayed strong. But then, suddenly, crack by crack, it all fell apart. And just like that, we were separated for good and it took longer to get us back together. So that's what I think is going to happen to me and Zac.
We've been through a lot together, give it time and it'll be that way again.
Yes.
I do realize I sound like someone telling you an old Latin proverb or something.
And I also realize I'm probably reading into some stupid erasers too much.
But I like my theory.
If you don't, too bad.
=D
- Paige.
It happened in Social Studies class and I just found it strangely ironic.
I have this friend (who we will call Suzie) and she has an eraser shaped like a puzzle with a friend's name on every piece. My name fit perfectly with this kid (who we'll call Zac) who I like's piece. So she got bored and started tossing mine and Zac's piece (together) around her desk, throwing it against her binder and stuff, but it wouldn't come apart, but everyone else's did. Then she even tried throwing my other friend's piece at us and nothing. Finally, after much hard work, the pieces separated.
That was the story.
Now here's my interpretation...
See, me and Zac have been through a lot in out relationship and we got through it. We've been through break ups, stupid fights, make-ups, my best friend trying to ruin our relationship, but we've stayed together through it all. And that's kinda what this was like. Suzie was throwing us against things, trying her hardest to break us apart. She even started throwing other people's pieces at us. And through it all, we stayed strong. But then, suddenly, crack by crack, it all fell apart. And just like that, we were separated for good and it took longer to get us back together. So that's what I think is going to happen to me and Zac.
We've been through a lot together, give it time and it'll be that way again.
Yes.
I do realize I sound like someone telling you an old Latin proverb or something.
And I also realize I'm probably reading into some stupid erasers too much.
But I like my theory.
If you don't, too bad.
=D
- Paige.
Thursday, October 11, 2007
A Song && Some Words.
I never could’ve seen this far
I never could’ve seen this coming
Seems like my world’s falling apart
Why is everything so hard
I don’t think I can deal with the things you said
It just won’t go away
In a perfect world
This could never happen
In a perfect world
You’d still be here
And it makes no sense
I could just pick up the pieces
But to you
This means nothing
Nothing at all
I used to think that I was strong
Until the day it all went wrong
I think I need a miracle to make it through
I wish that I could bring you back
I wish that I could turn back time
Cuz I can’t let go
I just can’t find my way
Without you I just can’t find my way
In a perfect world
This could never happen
In a perfect world
You’d still be here
And it makes no sense
I could just pick up the pieces
But to you
This means nothing
Nothing at all
I don’t know what I should do now
I don’t know where I should go
I’m still here waiting for you
I’m lost when you’re not around
I need to hold on to you
I just can’t let you go
I had the worst day ever.
Wanna know why?
1. One of my best friends is being a complete jerk to me after all I did was care about her. I just don't want her to get hurt. And her boy friend is/has always been an asshole. I'm not sure why she can't see that.
2. My other best friend /will not/ stop flirting with my crush. I totally had him first. She's just annoying the shit out of me.
3. I'm running out of friends to have.
4. I am more in love with this kid than I've ever been, but now he hates me. It figures.
5. Now I have cheer pictures where I have to smile. And all I've felt like doing all day is crying, so that just sucks. Plus, my only friend in cheerleading is the friend who is currently pissed at me for no reason.
6. I'm in the least focused group /ever/ in science. With an obnoxious kid, the one I'm in love with, my flirtatious "best friend" and me.
7. Everyone now thinks it's "that time of the month" for me thanks to Sabrina. Therefore, everyone's ignoring me and making fun of me. Stupid Kara started it. She /had/ to say I've been having mood swings which I really haven't.
Nope.
It really doesn't get much worse than that.
And the most horrible part?
I think it's all my stupid fault.
-- Paige
I never could’ve seen this coming
Seems like my world’s falling apart
Why is everything so hard
I don’t think I can deal with the things you said
It just won’t go away
In a perfect world
This could never happen
In a perfect world
You’d still be here
And it makes no sense
I could just pick up the pieces
But to you
This means nothing
Nothing at all
I used to think that I was strong
Until the day it all went wrong
I think I need a miracle to make it through
I wish that I could bring you back
I wish that I could turn back time
Cuz I can’t let go
I just can’t find my way
Without you I just can’t find my way
In a perfect world
This could never happen
In a perfect world
You’d still be here
And it makes no sense
I could just pick up the pieces
But to you
This means nothing
Nothing at all
I don’t know what I should do now
I don’t know where I should go
I’m still here waiting for you
I’m lost when you’re not around
I need to hold on to you
I just can’t let you go
I had the worst day ever.
Wanna know why?
1. One of my best friends is being a complete jerk to me after all I did was care about her. I just don't want her to get hurt. And her boy friend is/has always been an asshole. I'm not sure why she can't see that.
2. My other best friend /will not/ stop flirting with my crush. I totally had him first. She's just annoying the shit out of me.
3. I'm running out of friends to have.
4. I am more in love with this kid than I've ever been, but now he hates me. It figures.
5. Now I have cheer pictures where I have to smile. And all I've felt like doing all day is crying, so that just sucks. Plus, my only friend in cheerleading is the friend who is currently pissed at me for no reason.
6. I'm in the least focused group /ever/ in science. With an obnoxious kid, the one I'm in love with, my flirtatious "best friend" and me.
7. Everyone now thinks it's "that time of the month" for me thanks to Sabrina. Therefore, everyone's ignoring me and making fun of me. Stupid Kara started it. She /had/ to say I've been having mood swings which I really haven't.
Nope.
It really doesn't get much worse than that.
And the most horrible part?
I think it's all my stupid fault.
-- Paige
Tuesday, October 9, 2007
Love [and some other crap like my life.]
I hate my life.
I really do.
I also hate;;
Being in love.
Being a teenager.
One of my friends.
People who tell you they have a secret, then just continue not to tell you what it is.
People who hate you just because you're dating who they like.
People who take out their anger on you even when you did nothing.
Yeah.
That's about it, without getting into detail.
I'm so sick of people telling me things and doing the opposite.
That's called being a hypocrite, people, and it's bad.
I'm so sick of love songs,
So tired of tears...
Sorry.
Random song moment.
How come everyone decides to point out your flaws /after/ they're over you?
Couldn't they just tell the truth to start with?
Really.
You'd think no one was /that/ stupid.
My rant's over.
Here's to hoping you all will never fall in love,
Paige
I really do.
I also hate;;
Being in love.
Being a teenager.
One of my friends.
People who tell you they have a secret, then just continue not to tell you what it is.
People who hate you just because you're dating who they like.
People who take out their anger on you even when you did nothing.
Yeah.
That's about it, without getting into detail.
I'm so sick of people telling me things and doing the opposite.
That's called being a hypocrite, people, and it's bad.
I'm so sick of love songs,
So tired of tears...
Sorry.
Random song moment.
How come everyone decides to point out your flaws /after/ they're over you?
Couldn't they just tell the truth to start with?
Really.
You'd think no one was /that/ stupid.
My rant's over.
Here's to hoping you all will never fall in love,
Paige
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