DANCEDANCE.
song moment. (:
okay.
now.
to the point of this blog...
i really am nawt hoping for a repeat of last year.
this all sounds too painfully familiar.
a dude dumps his girl friend.
then decides he wants to go out with me.
i am dubbed a boy friend stealer.
my best friend clings to my boy friend more than me.
we fight over him...
A ZILLION TIMES.
and yummers is the best friend ever.
and, except for the last part, i don't want to go through that again.
no.
nawt at all.
so all my friends [and parents] say that /if/ he asks me out, i should say no.
which would be totally cool and make him fall on his face.
but i can't say no to him.
as i told kara at the dance;
i swear to god he puts a spell on people.
because i know that if he were to ask me out at any point, i would say yes.
and i don't know if that's crazyness or stupidity or what.
but it has to mean something... right?
like, if we both go crawling back to each other, maybe we're made for each other?
i really just don't know.
and i want this drama to END.
liiiiike, now.
thanks.
<3
Paige
Saturday, February 16, 2008
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
lean with it [rock with it♥]
well.
that's it.
i'm done with people treating me like shit.
people think i only do things because i don't care about their feelings when, really, it is them not caring about my feelings.
does he really think that every time he tells me i screwed up it doesn't hurt?
because it does.
heartbreak is the worst thing in the world, and, being who he is, you would think he'd know that.
obviously not.
i will give you a few quotes straight from the jackass himself;;
x
him: since ur going to act like i thought i could try to start again with u but this just ended it
x
him: -shakes head- u just lost my trust
me: i lost it before, i thought.
him: yeah but gain some anyways now its all gone
x
him: ur a jerk that doesnt care if she hurts anyone just as lobng as shes happy shes fine
x
him: oh and im blocking u
x
the last one is hilarious.
kara knows why.
you see; this has become a daily routine for me.
he'll get mad at me for something i screwed up.
everyone makes mistakes.
anyway.
i've stopped caring.
so he'll be like, "i'm blocking you. bye."
and i'll simply say, "bye."
[i used to stop him, but then i got used to it and now i don't bother.]
and then he'll block me.
two second later?
he comes back online.
and IMs me.
sometimes it's to see if i'll talk to him.
when i don't, he'll im me with something stupid.
like... "-sigh-"
and wait for me to react.
sometimes, he signs on just to tell me how much he hates me.
i think he does that one just to make him believe it himself.
other times, he'll start talking to me like we're friends again.
that's pretty much the 3 things he does.
i s'pose it just depends on what kind of mood he's in.
and, trust me, he has enough mood swings to last for the world.
first, he's the sweetest thing ever, then he's yelling at me because i dumped him almost a year ago.
I DON'T GET IT.
does /anyone/ get why he does the things he does?
please.
just tell me how he can think that driving anyone to hate themselves is a good thing.
i'll love you forever.
xox,
the confused one.
that's it.
i'm done with people treating me like shit.
people think i only do things because i don't care about their feelings when, really, it is them not caring about my feelings.
does he really think that every time he tells me i screwed up it doesn't hurt?
because it does.
heartbreak is the worst thing in the world, and, being who he is, you would think he'd know that.
obviously not.
i will give you a few quotes straight from the jackass himself;;
x
him: since ur going to act like i thought i could try to start again with u but this just ended it
x
him: -shakes head- u just lost my trust
me: i lost it before, i thought.
him: yeah but gain some anyways now its all gone
x
him: ur a jerk that doesnt care if she hurts anyone just as lobng as shes happy shes fine
x
him: oh and im blocking u
x
the last one is hilarious.
kara knows why.
you see; this has become a daily routine for me.
he'll get mad at me for something i screwed up.
everyone makes mistakes.
anyway.
i've stopped caring.
so he'll be like, "i'm blocking you. bye."
and i'll simply say, "bye."
[i used to stop him, but then i got used to it and now i don't bother.]
and then he'll block me.
two second later?
he comes back online.
and IMs me.
sometimes it's to see if i'll talk to him.
when i don't, he'll im me with something stupid.
like... "-sigh-"
and wait for me to react.
sometimes, he signs on just to tell me how much he hates me.
i think he does that one just to make him believe it himself.
other times, he'll start talking to me like we're friends again.
that's pretty much the 3 things he does.
i s'pose it just depends on what kind of mood he's in.
and, trust me, he has enough mood swings to last for the world.
first, he's the sweetest thing ever, then he's yelling at me because i dumped him almost a year ago.
I DON'T GET IT.
does /anyone/ get why he does the things he does?
please.
just tell me how he can think that driving anyone to hate themselves is a good thing.
i'll love you forever.
xox,
the confused one.
Saturday, February 9, 2008
DON'T FORGET [to (remember) me]
so.
okay.
i'm writing this in addition to yesterday's post because my feelings change... a lot.
and today..
i got some sense knocked into me.
how, i can't say.
srsly.
people would get mad.
but, anyway, i've decided to butt out of people's business.
and i think everyone else should too.
what does on between him and her is their business, not everyone else's.
i know other people agree with me when i say that they aren't made for each other.
but they'll learn it soon enough.
it really isn't anyone else's problem, except theirs.
it's obvious that they both love each other...
well.
it's obvious he loves her.
and i think she loves him too.
we'll see.
but, really people, stay out of it.
i know i'm being a hypocrite, but i've decided to butt out now, and everyone else should, too.
i know they're doing it because they care, but they should just let him and her work it out by themselves.
because they're both happy with the relationship right now, so let them be.
i'm gonna.
and if i can, you sure should be able to.
i /love/ him and i'm staying out of it.
learn from me, will you?
it's not like they're gonna marry each other or something.
we're only in middle school.
people shouldn't be saying "i love you" every day in the first place.
[yes. that was hypocritical of me.]
but...
i don't know.
just let them be.
please?
thanks.
<3
Paige
okay.
i'm writing this in addition to yesterday's post because my feelings change... a lot.
and today..
i got some sense knocked into me.
how, i can't say.
srsly.
people would get mad.
but, anyway, i've decided to butt out of people's business.
and i think everyone else should too.
what does on between him and her is their business, not everyone else's.
i know other people agree with me when i say that they aren't made for each other.
but they'll learn it soon enough.
it really isn't anyone else's problem, except theirs.
it's obvious that they both love each other...
well.
it's obvious he loves her.
and i think she loves him too.
we'll see.
but, really people, stay out of it.
i know i'm being a hypocrite, but i've decided to butt out now, and everyone else should, too.
i know they're doing it because they care, but they should just let him and her work it out by themselves.
because they're both happy with the relationship right now, so let them be.
i'm gonna.
and if i can, you sure should be able to.
i /love/ him and i'm staying out of it.
learn from me, will you?
it's not like they're gonna marry each other or something.
we're only in middle school.
people shouldn't be saying "i love you" every day in the first place.
[yes. that was hypocritical of me.]
but...
i don't know.
just let them be.
please?
thanks.
<3
Paige
Friday, February 8, 2008
you're gone [i've moved on]♥
BUT IT ONLY WOULD'VE TAKEN TWO SECONDS TO SAY GOODBYE.
sorry.
i have a recent jonas brothers obsession.
anyway.
well, i haven't posted in a while, so i thought it was time i filled you in on my life and such.
i got a new babysitting job while i start today at 4:30.
i'm not really excited, but really all i have to entertain a little kid.
it can't be /thaaat/ hard.
we're gonna be at hampshire college with a track and a game room... so it should be fine.
moving on with life.
last night i decided i was over him.
i dunno something just clicked in my mind and i decided that i deserved better.
but this morning i woke up and went to school and the click unclicked and now i like him again.
i really have to stop with this.
really.
now moving on to him and her.
apparently they got in a fight or something?
i'm not really sure what happened, but they ignored each other all day.
and i shouldn't have been surprised.
they don't hang out anyway.
i think that she hangs out with her friends because he's with his friends...
and then he's with his friends because she's with her friends.
not that it's really any of my business.
ah well.
i will continue to make it my business, even though it's not. (:
i just care about this guy, even when we hate each other.
it's complicated because i want him to be happy, but i know he's not with her.
they can say they love each other but THEY DON'T.
and i know i can't say what other people can, but it've been in love before.
when you're in love, you want to be with that person every minute of every day.
and since they both ignore each other [she ignores him, sorry] they can't be in love.
and i know we're teenagers, so we shouldn't be in love in the first place.
then again, there isn't an age limit on love.
but to be boyfriend and girlfriend you should at least spend /some/ time together.
i'm serious.
well, i bet you've had enough of my rant...
TOO BAD.
ima keep going. (:
so this couple...
actually, i've run out of things to say about them.
it's not that i hate either of them.
i actually think they're both nice people [so we don't have a repeat of last time]...
they just don't belong in this world as a couple.
some people are made for each other, they aren't.
and there will come a day when everyone realizes i'm right.
-nodnod-
let's hope that day comes soon.
love&kisses&hugs to my girls,
Paige
sorry.
i have a recent jonas brothers obsession.
anyway.
well, i haven't posted in a while, so i thought it was time i filled you in on my life and such.
i got a new babysitting job while i start today at 4:30.
i'm not really excited, but really all i have to entertain a little kid.
it can't be /thaaat/ hard.
we're gonna be at hampshire college with a track and a game room... so it should be fine.
moving on with life.
last night i decided i was over him.
i dunno something just clicked in my mind and i decided that i deserved better.
but this morning i woke up and went to school and the click unclicked and now i like him again.
i really have to stop with this.
really.
now moving on to him and her.
apparently they got in a fight or something?
i'm not really sure what happened, but they ignored each other all day.
and i shouldn't have been surprised.
they don't hang out anyway.
i think that she hangs out with her friends because he's with his friends...
and then he's with his friends because she's with her friends.
not that it's really any of my business.
ah well.
i will continue to make it my business, even though it's not. (:
i just care about this guy, even when we hate each other.
it's complicated because i want him to be happy, but i know he's not with her.
they can say they love each other but THEY DON'T.
and i know i can't say what other people can, but it've been in love before.
when you're in love, you want to be with that person every minute of every day.
and since they both ignore each other [she ignores him, sorry] they can't be in love.
and i know we're teenagers, so we shouldn't be in love in the first place.
then again, there isn't an age limit on love.
but to be boyfriend and girlfriend you should at least spend /some/ time together.
i'm serious.
well, i bet you've had enough of my rant...
TOO BAD.
ima keep going. (:
so this couple...
actually, i've run out of things to say about them.
it's not that i hate either of them.
i actually think they're both nice people [so we don't have a repeat of last time]...
they just don't belong in this world as a couple.
some people are made for each other, they aren't.
and there will come a day when everyone realizes i'm right.
-nodnod-
let's hope that day comes soon.
love&kisses&hugs to my girls,
Paige
Wednesday, January 30, 2008
woah [they're beauties]
The Boyfriend List
by Paige
1. Adam (But the wedding was canceled)
2. Patrick S. (But then he moved)
3. Jeffery (But he dated everyone)
4. Jonathan (But we never really talked)
5. Frankie (But we try not to think about it)
6. Kevin (But it was out of pity)
7.
8. Joey (But it was only from afar and then I gave up)
9. Patrick B. (But he started to hate me when he found out)
10. Mitchel Musso (But his hair got too long)
11. Tony (But then I screwed things up)
12. Zac Efron (But he has a girl friend)
♥♥
Sunday, January 27, 2008
why [do you ALWAYS do this to me] ?
uggh.
confusing seems to be the word of my life right now.
so, everyone knows i like this guy.
i mean, hell-oh.
it's obvious.
but, like, i'm not supposed to like him and he's not supposed to like me.
but it seems like the saying is true.
you always want what you can't have.
GO FIGURE.
and to add to it?
i don't even know if i like him.
my feelings are so screwed at the moment.
like, he makes fun of me.
he talks about his girl friend around me, even though he knows it bugs me.
he constantly yells at me for no reason.
and every day i go through the same thing.
he's like, "okay. you're a stupid bitch and i'm blocking you."
so i'm like, "whatever."
because i am so sick of caring.
so then he goes offline/blocks me.
guess what happens two seconds later?
he comes back online waiting for me to go crawling back to him.
then when i don't [because even though it may not seem that way, i'm a really strong girl. emotionally and slightly physically], he comes crawling back to me saying, "well i GUESS i'll be your friend if you WANT."
and so i'm like, "i don't really care either way."
then he says, "oh please. you love me. you couldn't live without me."
HAH.
i totally could.
i think.
i mean, like, if i tried/wanted to, i could.
but he's making everything hard.
so then he decides to twist things saying i'm mad at him for not dumping his girl friend for me after i broke his heart twice.
which i'm not.
it's totally understandable.
sure, i wish he loved me, but i don't expect him to.
i dumped him for stupid reasons twice.
i'm not sure i'd still like someone who did that to me.
anyway.
yeah.
so then we work things out and are friends again until the next night when he does it again.
IT'S JUST SO FRICKING ANNOYING.
i can't stand it anymore.
and poor kara has to deal with me every time.
i love her.
she's the best.
srsly.
i don't even know how i handle myself everyday, let alone my friends who have to deal with it.
so, yeah, i'm thankful for her.
and everyone who has ever cheered me up.
you all are the best.
<3
Paige
confusing seems to be the word of my life right now.
so, everyone knows i like this guy.
i mean, hell-oh.
it's obvious.
but, like, i'm not supposed to like him and he's not supposed to like me.
but it seems like the saying is true.
you always want what you can't have.
GO FIGURE.
and to add to it?
i don't even know if i like him.
my feelings are so screwed at the moment.
like, he makes fun of me.
he talks about his girl friend around me, even though he knows it bugs me.
he constantly yells at me for no reason.
and every day i go through the same thing.
he's like, "okay. you're a stupid bitch and i'm blocking you."
so i'm like, "whatever."
because i am so sick of caring.
so then he goes offline/blocks me.
guess what happens two seconds later?
he comes back online waiting for me to go crawling back to him.
then when i don't [because even though it may not seem that way, i'm a really strong girl. emotionally and slightly physically], he comes crawling back to me saying, "well i GUESS i'll be your friend if you WANT."
and so i'm like, "i don't really care either way."
then he says, "oh please. you love me. you couldn't live without me."
HAH.
i totally could.
i think.
i mean, like, if i tried/wanted to, i could.
but he's making everything hard.
so then he decides to twist things saying i'm mad at him for not dumping his girl friend for me after i broke his heart twice.
which i'm not.
it's totally understandable.
sure, i wish he loved me, but i don't expect him to.
i dumped him for stupid reasons twice.
i'm not sure i'd still like someone who did that to me.
anyway.
yeah.
so then we work things out and are friends again until the next night when he does it again.
IT'S JUST SO FRICKING ANNOYING.
i can't stand it anymore.
and poor kara has to deal with me every time.
i love her.
she's the best.
srsly.
i don't even know how i handle myself everyday, let alone my friends who have to deal with it.
so, yeah, i'm thankful for her.
and everyone who has ever cheered me up.
you all are the best.
<3
Paige
Monday, January 21, 2008
paige and kara in [THE THERAPIST]
my best friend;;
(6:40:16 PM) Kara: okay therepy time cuz im bored
(6:40:20 PM) Kara: hows life?
(6:40:20 PM) Paige: ohgod.
(6:40:24 PM) Paige: fine.
(6:40:38 PM) Kara: how does that make you /feel/?
(6:40:48 PM) Paige: fine.
(6:41:18 PM) Kara: you need to open up ~hand gestures~ more.
(6:44:30 PM) Paige: no i don't. -closes hands-
(6:45:17 PM) Kara: yes you do ~opens hands~
(6:45:48 PM) Paige: NO.I.DON'T. -glues kara's hands together with super glue-
(6:46:21 PM) Kara: YES YOU DO. ~bites paiges hands apart
(6:46:23 PM) Kara: ~
(6:46:31 PM) Paige: ouch !
(6:46:35 PM) Paige: i don't like you.
(6:46:49 PM) Paige: i'm outta here. -stomps out of therapist's office-
(6:46:58 PM) Kara: you /superglued/ my hnds
(6:47:02 PM) Kara: hands*
(6:47:12 PM) Paige: -calls from outside- YOUR PROBLEM.
(6:47:36 PM) Kara: ~calls security~ YOURE PROBLEM NOW
(6:47:56 PM) Paige: -runs awa- YOU'LL NEVER CATCH ME ALIVE, COPPERS.
(6:48:02 PM) Paige: [i saw that in a movie]
(6:48:15 PM) Kara: ~brings out the dogs~ YOU WANNA BET??
(6:48:30 PM) Paige: -pets dogs- awwh. they're sweet. (:
(6:49:43 PM) Kara: okay, shes distracted...SIC!! [or however you spell it.]
(6:49:53 PM) Kara: [im having typing issues]
(6:49:58 PM) Paige: [i see]
(6:50:23 PM) Paige: -runs away from dogs and into house-. phew -wips forehead like there's sweat on it but there isn't.-
(6:50:59 PM) Kara: ~brings out the bombers~
(6:51:07 PM) Kara: [i sound like tony]
(6:51:20 PM) Paige: [did you realize that therapist is like the rapist without spaces?!?!?!?!]
(6:51:26 PM) Paige: ahhh !
(6:51:38 PM) Paige: -sacrifices self- i give up.
(6:51:52 PM) Kara: hahahahahahaha
(6:51:58 PM) Kara: thats hilarioysss
(6:52:02 PM) Paige: yeah.
(6:53:14 PM) Paige: so are we through with this therapist story?
(6:53:53 PM) Kara: i suppose
(6:53:59 PM) Paige: good.
(6:54:04 PM) Paige: cause it's going in my blog.
(6:54:20 PM) Kara: mine too
(6:54:26 PM) Paige: xDD
(6:54:32 PM) Kara: the rapist comment went ito my bi
(6:54:40 PM) Paige: nice.
(6:54:46 PM) Kara: yup
(6:40:16 PM) Kara: okay therepy time cuz im bored
(6:40:20 PM) Kara: hows life?
(6:40:20 PM) Paige: ohgod.
(6:40:24 PM) Paige: fine.
(6:40:38 PM) Kara: how does that make you /feel/?
(6:40:48 PM) Paige: fine.
(6:41:18 PM) Kara: you need to open up ~hand gestures~ more.
(6:44:30 PM) Paige: no i don't. -closes hands-
(6:45:17 PM) Kara: yes you do ~opens hands~
(6:45:48 PM) Paige: NO.I.DON'T. -glues kara's hands together with super glue-
(6:46:21 PM) Kara: YES YOU DO. ~bites paiges hands apart
(6:46:23 PM) Kara: ~
(6:46:31 PM) Paige: ouch !
(6:46:35 PM) Paige: i don't like you.
(6:46:49 PM) Paige: i'm outta here. -stomps out of therapist's office-
(6:46:58 PM) Kara: you /superglued/ my hnds
(6:47:02 PM) Kara: hands*
(6:47:12 PM) Paige: -calls from outside- YOUR PROBLEM.
(6:47:36 PM) Kara: ~calls security~ YOURE PROBLEM NOW
(6:47:56 PM) Paige: -runs awa- YOU'LL NEVER CATCH ME ALIVE, COPPERS.
(6:48:02 PM) Paige: [i saw that in a movie]
(6:48:15 PM) Kara: ~brings out the dogs~ YOU WANNA BET??
(6:48:30 PM) Paige: -pets dogs- awwh. they're sweet. (:
(6:49:43 PM) Kara: okay, shes distracted...SIC!! [or however you spell it.]
(6:49:53 PM) Kara: [im having typing issues]
(6:49:58 PM) Paige: [i see]
(6:50:23 PM) Paige: -runs away from dogs and into house-. phew -wips forehead like there's sweat on it but there isn't.-
(6:50:59 PM) Kara: ~brings out the bombers~
(6:51:07 PM) Kara: [i sound like tony]
(6:51:20 PM) Paige: [did you realize that therapist is like the rapist without spaces?!?!?!?!]
(6:51:26 PM) Paige: ahhh !
(6:51:38 PM) Paige: -sacrifices self- i give up.
(6:51:52 PM) Kara: hahahahahahaha
(6:51:58 PM) Kara: thats hilarioysss
(6:52:02 PM) Paige: yeah.
(6:53:14 PM) Paige: so are we through with this therapist story?
(6:53:53 PM) Kara: i suppose
(6:53:59 PM) Paige: good.
(6:54:04 PM) Paige: cause it's going in my blog.
(6:54:20 PM) Kara: mine too
(6:54:26 PM) Paige: xDD
(6:54:32 PM) Kara: the rapist comment went ito my bi
(6:54:40 PM) Paige: nice.
(6:54:46 PM) Kara: yup
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