fairytales don't always have a [happy] ending...

some people can just be so stupid.
UGH.
okay.
so here's the deal.
i know this couple.
i'll name them... Jake and Carrie.
well, jake really loves carrie. i know so. he told me.
carrie on the other hand... no one thinks she likes jake.
NO ONE.
except maybe her close friends, or whatever.
like, she's ditched him so many times.
like once, he was waiting to say goodbye to her and she just WALKED AWAY with her friends.
like, that's ridiculous.
but he's too stupid to notice that she doesn't care.
i want the best for them, i really do.
but they're both such.... OHMYGOD.
oh.
and they got into a fight yesterday.
carrie got super offended because jake told her that she didn't totally act like she loved him [which is reasonable, cause she DOESN'T]
then she got all pissed at him because he was hanging out with other girls more then her.
WTF?
she hangs out with other guys & he's not mad.
like, he tries to hang out with her, but she ditches him for her friends, so he hangs out with other people.
it's like....
she doesn't deserve him.
i know she doesn't.
because he's the sweetest, cutest, most amazing guy ever, and she won't give him the time of day.
sure, i was shy when i had a boy friend, but i never acted like he didn't exist !
i think maybe jake's starting to realize that carrie's not the right one for him.
i dunno. i hope so.
we'll see.
love&kisses,
Paige

my poem [that took me forever]

First Love

Another day, another tear.

Another hope, another fear.

She’s done with him, she’s done with love.

He lies again, she receives another shove.

Everything they had, everything was gone,

All because she felt she had no one to lean on.

She needed him there, so she had to leave,

It was the wrong thing, she was so naive.

Now he loves another, no better than the first,

Yet this pain she feels from heartbreak is the worst.

He deserves so much better,

She’d prove herself to him, if only he’d let her.

His new girl doesn’t care,

To her, it’s all about the kisses and stuffed bear.

She knows he’ll figure it out eventually,

Even if she breaks them up unintentionally.

There for him still,

Drama, lies, and gossip, she gets her daily fill.

With every tear he sheds, she’s there for him.

Yet still the chances of him falling for her again are slim.

He hurts her, her heart breaks,

With every breath he unconsciously takes.

Maybe he doesn’t know what’s killing her inside,

All her secrets she tends to hide.

She’s yet to find someone who she can trust,

Most of her friendships have turned to dust.

She thought she had a friend in this amazing boy,

Though, it seems all he does is take away her joy.

“I’m done with these lies,” she says with a tear,

For the answer to her problems is really very clear.

She could forget about her love,

Which there has been talk of,

But she can’t forget her first,

Losing those memories would be the worst.

So she picks up a knife, then it tumbles to the floor,

And she asks herself, “Oh my god, what am I really doing this for?”

“All this stress over one silly boy?”

“All he’s done is play with my heart like a toy.”

“I’m done with his games,” she said, sad no more.

“I’ll take all his lies and throw them out the door.”

So that’s what she did, or, at least, she tried.

For the very next night, she lay down and cried.

And that’s when she realized she’d never be glad,

Until he came back and made her less sad.

I’m sure a happily ever after would make this story grand,

But he never apologized, never held her hand.

Through life, she survived,

Even of love she wasn’t deprived.

But she’s glad she never forgot what her and her first love once had,

For she can always take out the memories, and know what made her sad.

She’ll never make the mistake of leaving someone again,

But why he never took her back is a mystery among men.

It’s okay, though, she’s happy now,

First love lasts forever, even if no one knows how.

love [eqals] itunes surveys

Life as a movie[through itunes shuffle]
Put your itunes on shuffle to answer questions...noskipping/cheating
Opening Credits::	Down in Mississippi- Sugarland
Waking Up::	You'll Think Of Me- Keith Urban
Getting Ready::	Let Me Be the One- Mandy Moore
Bus Ride to School::	Get Your Shine On- Jesse McCartney
School::	jump to the Rhythm- Jordan Pruitt
Friends::	Candyman- Christina Aguilera
Enemies::	Grillz- Nelly
Teachers::	Walk Away- Kelly Clarkson
Classes::	So Yesterday- Hilary Duff
Home::	As I Am- Hilary Duff
Parents::	Make You Mine- Vanessa Hudgens
Siblings::	One Original Thing- Cheyanne Kimball
Boyfriend/girlfriend::	I Am One of Them- Aly & AJ
Party::	I Don't Dance- HSM2
Fight With Boyfriend/girlfriend::	Run-Around- Blues Traveler
Breaking up::	Behind These hazel Eyes- Kelly Clarkson
Downward spiral::	My Boo- Usher & Alicia Keys
Low days::	We Can- LeAnne Rimes
Recovery::	Go Figure- Everlife
Happiness::	Unwritten- Natasha Bedingfield
Getting back together::	Part of Your World- Skye Sweetnam
graduation day::	Kerosene- Miranda Lamburt
College::	She's No You- Jesse McCartney
Marriage::	Hide Away- Hilary Duff
honey moon::	Year 3000- Jonas Brothers
Birth of a child::	Ugly- Brie Larson
Work/Grown up life::	Breakaway- Kelly Clarkson
Death Scene::	The Math- Hilary Duff
Ending Credits::	Face Down- Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
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Finnish the sentence by shuffling your ITunes/MP3/Winamp/whatever
My name is...:	Ain't No Other Man
I am...:	I Know
I feel like...:	A Thousand Miles
I want to be...:	Do Your Own Thing
I wish...:	The Stupid Things
Your Life
When I was born...:	Everytime
My parents made me while...:	Haters
My first words were...:	Celebrity
When I met my best friend I thought...:	So Real
My first crush was...:	High School Never Ends
My first date...:	Love the One You're With
My first kiss...:	Cooties
Me and my best friends discuss about...:	Love Just is
My school is like...:	Sugar, We're Goin' Down
My first job was...:	Ocean Avenue
My first concert was...:	Girlfriend
My wedding-song will be...:	Show Stopper
When I lose my job I think...:	Beautiful Soul
This will people say about me at my funeral...:	Girl
My funeral song will be...:	You Can't Stop the Beat
In heaven I sing this to god...:	Circles
God kicks me out of heaven, that's what I'll tell him...:	Unfaithful
With the devil I talk about...:	Zip-A-Dee-Do-Dah
Thoughts
My parents think about me...:	Red High Heels
My grandparents think about me...:	Yee Haw
My siblings think about me...:	Be Good to Me
My teachers/boss think about me...:	Story of a Girl
My best friends think about me...:	Where the Green Grass Grows
I think about my parents...:	Pop, Lock, & Drop it
I think about my grandparents...:	Wake Up
I think about my siblings...:	Old Blue Jeans
I think about my teachers/boss:	Wait A Minute
I think about my best friends...:	One in a Million
Foreign people might think about me...:	She Said
And last but not least...
This night I'll dream of...:	Say My Name
Last night I dreamt of...:	SOS
I never want to dream of...:	I Am
I need...:	Superstition
I don't need...:	Hanging On
This survey is...:	Someone's Watching Over Me
:	I'm Alright<3>
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Your love life on itunes
Open your itunes and put it on shuffle. Every answer is a song title.
How did you meet?:	Apologize
His/her first impression of you?:	Come to Me
your first impression of them?:	Best Day of my Life
How'd you two feel when you met?:	Lose Control
Describe the first date.:	Headstrong
Ending the night?:	Broken
The best time you've had together:	Invincible
Worst thing that's happened between you guys?:	Cold Day in July
First time kissing::	Gotta Go My Own Way
Meeting his/her parents::	Take My Breath Away
The impressions on the parents you made::	What I Go to School For
Having a fight::	Beep
Anniversary::	Step Up
A present he/she gave you::	Why Don't You Kiss Her?
coming to them on a really bad day::	Everything Back But You
falling in love::	If I Fall, You're Going Down With Me
Your song together is::	Breathe [2am]
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comments on which you thought were most amazing, are loved. :]]

i need to stop [now]

this love isn't even healthy anymore.
i'm attracted to the worst possible person i could choose to love ever.
and it's stupid because i hate him so much, but i love him.
which makes no sense.
and he doesn't understand either.
which makes it way worse.
i've apologized five million times, but nothing seems to really get through, you know?
and i should accept the fact that it's over, but i can't let go because what if the moment i decide to forget him, he comes back.
it's that last strand of hope that keeps me hanging on.
and i'm not giving up until i get him back.
girls can lie all they want, but she doesn't love him as much as i did.
and nothing can change that.
he doesn't understand what i'd do if he'd take me back.
but i don't know how to show it to him.
so now i'm not happy.
like zac efron.
maybe i should marry him<3
- Paige

PS. i wish it was christmas..

my [REAL] wishlist

[idea inspired by kat because, well, she's amazing.]

i wish for a true love that would never end
i wish for real friends that won't backstab you
i wish that my friends were a lot happier
i wish i could /make/ my friends happier
i wish for a hug, someone to hold me and never want to let go
i wish for zac efron
i wish that kara could get corbin bleu
i wish that my life was more exciting
i wish for world peace [even if that sounded dorky]
i wish for acceptance of everyone regarding size and race [now i'm turning into tracy turnblad]
i wish people would stop being so fake
i wish everyone would stop lying
i wish my friends would stop fading away from me
i wish my friends from camp went to my school
i wish i could feel able to love again
i wish for blue eyes
i wish for /him/
i wish i could sing
i wish for him to love me again
i wish for the perfect romance
i wish i could stop crying myself to sleep
i wish i had someone who i thought i could really trust
i wish there was no such thing as internet predators
i wish that paparazzi would stop messing with other people's lives
i wish for a plot for me & kat's role play
i wish for a good grade on my science project
i wish i never had to grow up

iloveyou

so[well]hi

i haven't written in a little bit.
i'm totally stressed.
but, on the bright side, my birthday is in less than a week!
WOOT!
why am i totally stressed, you ask?
well, see, it's the same old same old.
the one thing i've been complaining about in here since i first started writing.
him.
see, he got a girl friend.
but that, i don't really care about. because since i broke up with him, he has a right to date whoever he wants.
the thing i hate is that he's constantly telling me that he's just sooooo happy i dumped him cause now i found this other girl who's soooo much better than me.
And then, it turns out that he kissed my best friend.
who wasn't even dating him!
it's not like it was wrong or anything cause they can kiss who they want and they both weren't dating anyone at the time, but still.
he told me and my other best friend that he never liked her in the first place.
so why he kissed her is beyond me.
not to mention he is now denying that he ever kissed said friend.
which just brings me back to the question of who is the liar in this situation?
either way, we both agree with the fact that he's a bad kisser.
which is good. :]
so, i'll stop ranting now.
i bet you're sick of my rants anyway.
ah well.
be prepared for more drama next week. :/
so bye.
- Paige

You know what's annoying... [?]

Tell me if you agree with any of the things below in a comment. I would like to know I'm not totally alone here...

- Isn't it annoying when people say they're your friends, and then go and back stab you?
- Or when people just randomly start ignoring you, even though you haven't said, like, a full sentence to them all day?
- And in addition to that, it's annoying when they won't even tell you why they are ignoring you. I mean, really, if they want you to leave them alone, they should tell you why they're mad. Otherwise, you'll keep bugging them to tell you what made them so upset.
- I hate it when people do things to purposely make you mad just because it's fun.
- And don't even get me started on when boys make fun of you and argue with you just because they like you. Do they SERIOUSLY think that that is going to make us like them..?
- Hypocrites are also obnoxious. They tell you they hate something you do, but they do the SAME THING.
- What about when people think they know everything about you, but really know nothing?
- Or when people make you guilty when you want to hang out with your other friends by saying "-sigh- Well I'll just stay here and be lonely."
- And I hate it when people hate you because you're dating who they like, but you didn't even know they liked the person who you're dating in the first place even though you've asked them if they did, but they denied it. This situation is totally different if the person dating the crush /knows/ you like him. Then the dater is ah-bviously at fault for not asking your permission. Because, technically, whoever admitted to liking him first, has dibs. And when the person who didn't care about your feelings is your "best friend"...? don't even get me started.

I'm not sure if these things annoy you too, or if I just made a complete fool out of myself by saying these things.
Plus, now everyone probably thinks I get mad too easily and will stay away from me.
Don't worry, you guys who are my friends are already amazing. Unless you're one of the people I didn't name, yet I did mention above. xD
Well, I have to go now.
I want to wash this stupid grid from science class off my hand.
<3, Paige.

PS. Don't you hate it when you love someone and hate them at the same time? God knows I do. :[[